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Busted back to once a week

Monday, September 30, 2013

emoticon I knew it was coming, so now I am back to once a week PTSD sessions. Wanted to stay in bed today with my head under the covers but I went to counseling.

Poor thing, my counselor, she dealt with 4 people before she saw me and she said I was not alone in my feelings. Everyone else was freaking out about the same thing, the impact of the fire in Seaside and how it will mess up our rebuilding of our homes and the new flood requirements that start tomorrow.

The only way I differed is that they were also freaking out about the upcoming anniversary of Sandy. Me, I am not trying to think about it. The idiots here are actually are planning activities to show "We are stronger than the storm". I hate that commercial. We are not stronger than the storm for those of us who lost our homes. The ones that are stronger are those who are clueless as to what we have gone through and still are no better off almost a year later.
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    emoticon I know people mean well but we can be a bit pushy sometimes.
    I hope all goes well for you. emoticon
    1633 days ago
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    1633 days ago
    I feel you on the whole celebration thing. Why have activities to mark the hurricane? I hope the government shutdown isn't causing a problem for you to. Here with the floods, the state will have to pay and then get reimbursed from the government.

    Sending you lots of prayers and hugs. Keep your head up.
    1634 days ago
  • WILLOW49
    It's certainly been a very long time that you've been waiting, so I do understand howyou feel. Let's hope things will progress more rapidly soon!

    1635 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
    prayers continue......
    we are here for you.....
    blessings and hugs............lita

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    1635 days ago
    You are in my thoughts and prayers. All I can do is pray for peace of mind. Anniversaries of tragic events are hard. I can only imagine what you and others are going through. I'm glad you have a therapist that is concerned for you and is helping you through it.
    1635 days ago
  • LORRAINE10141
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  • ERIN1957
    Why do we as a people continue to remind ourselves of events that were terrible?
    My true sign of healing was when I actually forgot about our home fire and the lose of everything in our home ....I could barely recalled the date and actually hadn't even thought about it! Sometimes when "others" bring it up, I am shocked to hear it all, AGAIN! That is when I knew I had moved forward and started living beyond this single event in my life. Different home, different, place and a different life. Sometimes it is hard to move forward for some, but I know I am a wiser stronger person because I did...even though it was very difficult.
    We still have the home place, but use it for a vacation spot instead.
    You too will get through this, as the stages of healing are met and you deal with what others are doing to you .
    It wasn't the storm that caused you all of this grief alone.
    It was what has happened since that effects us deeply as well. Where you thought you had security failed and the damages are still there as they continue to slap you down. You will stand up again someday, do what you have to, to get there.
    With God all things are possible!!!
    1635 days ago
    i think it's callous of the authorities to consider marking the anniversary, as if you need reminding.
    Yvonne you ARE a strong lady, you HAVE come a long way since that awful eventand you will get through this hun. praying for rebuilding and a return to normality for you and everyone affected. emoticon
    1635 days ago
    You were right but I recall you saying that you felt better when you went so I think it would be good to go back. You're right who cares about the anniversary it's not a good event so why call it an anniversary if you know what I mean.

    Moving forward is what I'm hearing in your words as to not thinking about Sandy.

    I'm praying for you, I'm hoping whatever outcome with building in the long run it's positive and all this will pass just hoping it's sooner than later.

    Praying for your healing and rebuilding ASAP!!!

    Lots of Love! emoticon
    1635 days ago
    I'm relly sorry you are dealing with ll of this. Please keep your head held high. No matter how hard it gets.
    1635 days ago
    I'm so sorry that things are so screwed up in your area & in your life. I continue to pray for you. I'm glad that you're going back to counseling once a week. I believe that you need it. I know that I would. I love you.
    1635 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    Its been a loooong time since all this happened so I understand your anger (I would be just as mad like you) so I hope they start letting you build soon.
    1635 days ago
    I can understand that. I have always wondered why people say "at least you didn't lose your family" which is true but memories and things we love in a home are very important to us.

    Sorry for your loss
    1635 days ago
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