Monday, September 30, 2013
Do you ever feel like if you don't do it, no one will? How true is it that if you don't do it...no one will?
I copied and pasted the question that applies the most to me. I do think if I don't do it, no one will - do it right. Yes, I'm one of "those" people. I'm starting to be thankful if someone else does anything. It isn't easy though. If I didn't hurt so much and had more energy I would much rather do everything myself. Maybe that's the reason I stay fat....to keep from doing things. I know, even I, won't be able to do anything up to my standards of perfection. I'm almost always uncomfortable (unless I'm asleep or numbed by food) because my house isn't clean or neat enough. When I am keeping the house halfway decent I'm exhausted because it isn't good enough, I sometimes can't even sleep because I'm thinking about all the stuff I still need to do. I can't seem to do anything for 15 minutes or a half hour and then stop. I get started and then I go and go until I'm really tired. I want to quit and never try again. I kind of do the same when I'm trying to lose weight. It's all I can think about and it's exhausting. Someone posted (Lauren Wardell was quoting Panda Cashman) - "If I make 1 small step today that could lead to taking another step tomorrow and another the next day. And I will get to the point where I am making 2 steps in a day, and then more and more." I think I'm almost afraid of that happening because the "more and more" sounds overwhelming and exhausting!
I need to just start....somewhere with something and keep doing it. If it starts getting out of control and overwhelming, I'll have to back off a little and keep trying. So what if I don't do this perfect. Anything in the right direction has to be better than what I'm doing now (nothing)!