I work for the government. The government may shut down tomorrow. I may get furloughed. I don't do well with uncertainty. However, I've told myself that I will be "okay" if that happens, to make the best of it, and to take it as an opportunity to be productive. Focus on more exercise. Get things done around the apartment. And, depending on how long it lasts, FINALLY open my Etsy jewelry shop that my friends and family have been pestering me to start selling my stuff.
That, in combination with the fact that the last two weeks I have had only 4 on track eating days and only 3 days of exercise, has left me stressed and feeling really indifferent about everything. Talk about a giant nosedive after my good paleo starting streak. Its not even about paleo right now, even though that is my new healthy eating standard, it is about staying on track and eating healthy in general. Which hasn't been the case. I feel like the government shutdown blew up overnight so I can't blame it on being stressed about that. I've just made some really poor decisions the last couple weeks.
Two weeks ago, I was recovering from that bike ride that left my knees incapacitated. I basically took that whole week off from exercising, justifying it as resting my body. But then I should have focused on my nutrition, that didn't happen either. I was just craving things and I knew I was having that cheat day on Friday (girls night) so I kind of threw in the towel. I also felt like I was fighting off something, a cold and I was very headache-y that just made me want comfort food. I overdid it girls night so that weekend wreaked havoc on my eating. Ugh.
This past week I had 2 days of eating on track, although two additional days one was over by some and one was actually under (wasn't trying, just happened) so hopefully it actually averaged out to 4 days on track. 3 exercising, which I still took it easier and low impact for my knees. Saturday was Oktoberfest which was a lot of fun but soooo not even remotely healthy. But, I discovered a new drink to love (womp womp): Woodchuck's hard cider in the fall flavor. Tastes like apples in cinnamon. Seriously. omg.
Yesterday we had what's becoming a regular thing, Sunday dinner with some friends at a local restaurant that serves a big family style sunday night dinner. So yeah, delicious, good for my social life, but the weekend was a total binge eating wash.
Whatever happens tomorrow will mark not only a new month but also new opportunities; I will either be able to continue work per usual in which case life will go on and I will continue to stay on track as much as possible until the 11th(I have friends coming into town that weekend so per usual, touristy things and dining out will take precedence). Or, I will find myself with more time on my hands for who knows how long but I will embrace it to make an effort to jumpstart more fitness and productivity into my life.
Only time will tell at this point...