Excuse this (scientific blog), but Iíve been working on my paper for Uni and Iíve had an urge to do an update blog about this topic. But before I get into that, I will share a tiny update about my progress since i started doing things my way.
I have completed 3657 fitness minutes over the past 3 months, totaling to about 61 hours over 88 days, which averages out to be 40 minutes a day. Not bad!!!
My SW was 128.9 kg and currently it's 124.4 kg. I lost 4.5 kg - nearly 10 pounds. I am starting to feel my bones under the fat, my collar bone is starting to show a little bit, when am lying down, I can feel my hip bones. It used to be a bunch of fat before. Some of my clothes are loose and I've got some guns for arms. I feel incredible (MOST of the time) and even though I am losing weight far too slowly than I used to, every gram, every pound and every inch counts. I have to remind myself of all these goodies on days like yesterday and today, when I am PMSing and wanna eat everything in sight and not workout.
And now back to the topic I wanted to discuss.
Being on this journey for as long as we have, we have gained a boatload of information about our behaviors in regards to eating habits and activity level. We know what our bodies need, and what our mind forces us to believe that we need. Itís only a matter of listening, seeing or feeling the right signals and choosing to do something that will satisfy our true needs. And NO, that doesnít mean helping yourself to the pint of ice-cream in the freezer, or the drive-through burger, fries and coke, UPSIZED because itís cheaper.
Having been on this journey - to better health and overall wellbeing, but mainly to look good in a tight dress Ė for nearly two years, I now know the pits and falls of this journey. I know before I binge the exact reason why I want to binge in the first place and how to stop myself from binging. That doesnít necessarily mean that I will stop myself, but I am just saying that I understand the way my brain works now and I know what triggers my sudden outbursts in the form of binging and missing a workout, or 10.
I am finding that itís becoming a little easier to handle because we all know that fulfilling the needs that are triggered by the sudden outburst only causes depression. And the spiral starts and continues until you snap out of it. That could take from a couple of minutes to years depending on so many personal factors.
If you feel good about yourself, you will wake up feeling strong and energized, you will walk up the stairs and park your car a bit farther to enjoy a quite walk to the office, you will take a couple of breaks to go move and be active, you will eat something healthy and you will go to the gym and kill your workout and take a refreshing shower and go home and cook something good and go to sleep feeling good about yourself and that about sums up the cycle of goodness. I mean this is what healthy people do, isnít it? They are active, positive, energetic people that are committed to this lifestyle. I mean why not, it sure feels great just reading it, let alone doing it!!!!!
I keep picturing a flow chart of tasks that lead to outcomes.
The only thing is that the above scenario doesnít show or help with different situations. What if you wake up in the morning and you are feeling like crap, or you get to work and end up being bombarded with issues that stress you out. Your flow chart will get completely messed up and you wonít have the same outcome.
What I am trying to point out is that we (people who are on this journey), need to think about this process, and what we can do to avoid the confusion of messing up the flow chart. When a process is broken, there needs to be a backup process in place to help you cope with sudden changes. This way, if you wake up feeling like crap, you will do something that will help you specifically to lift your mood so that you can get back on the process lines of your flow chart. Everyone has a different flow chart, but I think it might be cool to create one and try and think of scenarios that you normally go through, positive and negative, and then figure out what you need to do in situations where you are negative and what could help you back to a positive outlook that will get you in the gym or ensures that you have the right food.
All these little things add up to the big picture. I think I might do this for real and try to be honest about what puts me down, or what helps me feel better. I donít think itís necessary per say, but I think it helps when the bad days are more than just a weekend, or a week, or god forbid, months and years.
Thankfully, I am now in a much happier place in terms of health, personal life, work, Uni and socially. And when the last time I binged was over 4 months ago and I believe itís because Iíve become a more positive person, I know what I want out of this journey, I have a cheat day every week, and If I have a burger when I probably shouldnít, I donít collapse emotionally and mentally. I just workout or eat a smaller meal or count my overall calories during that day and balance it out somehow. I think of the big picture and I calm the f down!! LOL. Thereís absolutely no point in worrying.
Anyway, am not entirely sure what was the point of this blog, I veered into a scientific discussion about flow charts and mental state and whatever. I really think this could help someone sorting out the way that they think about this journey, and maybe simplifying the whole process. I know that for me, simplifying this journey made it a lot easier to enjoy and keep going. Today is a bit tough for me, because I don't really want to eat healthy, I don't want to workout and I just want to lie down and be lazy. But it's all about remembering why am on this journey, how far i've come and how much farther I have to go to be where I want to be. So instead of beating myself up about eating junk on 2 days out of an amazing month, I am going to let go of what I did, and after posting this blog, go wash up, put on my shoes and sweats, and get on the treadmill (which I enjoy watching shows on the iPad), and take a shower and go to bed feeling good about today.
Always think of the big picture. hell, one month of crap eating over the course of one year won't mess up the progress of this journey, why worry about a couple of days.
Side note: The rock was on a strict diet for 172 days (his best record) for his role on the Hercules upcoming movie. he says that it was one of his biggest challenges but that reaching the goal far surpassed his will to mess up his progress. I think that I want to pursue this goal, and challenge myself to a number of days doing something that will truly challenge and get me closer to my goal on this journey. If I decide to do that, I will post it here. Wohoo.
Love you all. sorry for the long blog of me babbling.