Monday, September 30, 2013
When I first decided to join spark people, I was tired of being 302 pounds. I wanted to change the way I lived my life and looked. My goal was losing 50 pounds. At first, I only watched what I ate and stopped drinking soda completely (I havenít had one since!) and didnít exercise much really. The first 10 pounds came off in the second week. That gave me the motivation I needed to lose the next 10 pounds and so on. Once I hit 30 pounds of weight loss, I hit a plateau. I had gotten a job and started back to college, but I soon then realized I couldnít work with me being a full time student in the medical field and had to quit my job. I then lost 10 more pounds, leaving me only 10 pounds from my first and original goal.
This is where the frustrated and lack of motivation started. The more I lose, the harder I have to work to lose even more, which I understand is normal, but I have a major issue with exercising in public by myself. I have had a few friends workout with me just for them to stop. Iíve heard the ďI want to lose weight tooĒ over 10 times in the last 6 months, and yet Iím the last one standing and actually doing what I said I would do. The only one that stuck with me until school started was my 8 year old nephew, he would ride bikes with me almost every night and always challenged us to go farther than we did the night before, which we maxed out at 7.7 miles! Since then, I havenít ride bikes much and can barely ride for 10 minutes, but of course by myself, and it seems that every time I run into some rude person that says something because Iím over weight, like isnít that why Iím out here trying to change in the first place? I know I shouldnít let it bother me but it does to the point I have stopped exercising outside unless someone is with me. Because of this, I had stopped watching what I ate for about a month, even though I didnít add any pounds on, I still felt different. This last week, Iíve finally got back on the band wagon and starting fresh again. I just wish I wasnít alone in the struggle as it seems.
I know I will I lose the last 10 pounds sooner or later, which I will be trying to lose another 20-30 pounds after that, I just wish it wasnít always this hard sometimes.
So I leave you with a motivational quote for anyone who might be feeling like I have.
ďYou donít get what you want; you get what you work for.Ē
Anyone that wants to give you crap for what you are doing, remind them that their the one sitting down not doing anything but running their mouths!