Sunday, September 29, 2013
So yeah. I've pretty much been back to old habits since my last blog. :X They're so hard to break! I do great during the day at work, but soon as I get home, I consume like 800 calories instead of the two or three hundred, and I blow the whole day. I'm not going anywhere near the scale because I'm terrified, but that always seems to be my motivator, because I always have to face the cold hard truth. Well, I guess I'll get on the scale on the first whether I like it or not.
But the good news is that I've done great today! It's about 9:30pm and I've only had 1035 calories. Haha that's ironic, because my worst days are usually days I have off work. Honestly though, I think I might have found a secret weapon that is helping me with the whole eating thing: Protein shakes!
Haha so that isn't exactly a new discovery. Actually I have to credit POMATOJUICE for introducing them to me like, 6 + months ago, but I'm only now getting to implementing them into a successful routine. It started a few days ago.
I was hard pressed to get two meals to take to work because there was a festival right on the square where my building is and the parking situation was going to make it impossible to leave for lunch. The only place I could go at that point was the gas station, and all they had that fit in my range was a 220 calorie protein shake, so I went with that plus a zero calorie energy drink and some water. I was totally worried I was going to drink that shake for lunch and be hungry super quick after that, but I was pleasantly surprised! That shake kept me full for near four hours, and then a second 160 calorie shake kept me good until a late dinner. I was surprised how far they went.
Haha I had another 160 calorie protein shake today, and didn't even feel the need to eat a real meal until about 6pm today. Needless to say, I need to acquire more of those suckers. Maybee implementing them into my diet will not only promote nutritional balance, but help me feel fuller longer on less calories.That's the key, I think. I've got to somehow find the balance between eating as little calorie as possible without getting so starved that I just end up binging at the end of the day. I'll just have to see how that goes.
In other news, I'm afraid I'm going to have to deplete what little savings I have for a big purchase. The mattress I have been sleeping on is as old as I am, and it's a narrow little twin with a whole and a dip in the center of it and it's uncomfortable as hell! I suspect it's the source of my back pain and my being so tired despite getting a full night's rest (well I guess it isn't rest if I'm so fatigued when I wake up, huh?). There are three brand name mattress stores in town and two off-brand ones, so I was hoping between them I could find a cheap mattress set and/or a financing option that doesn't drain my bank account. One thing's for sure - I need a fix soon! Bleh.
Haha other than that nothing else is going on in my little ole' life. I'm extremely bored now that all the football games are over, and when I'm bored I get "hungry." I'm going to have to do my best to amuse myself for the rest of the evening. Haha I honestly have no right to say I'm bored, considering I have so many things at my disposal like sketchbooks, a multitude of regular books, a computer with games on it, etc etc. First world problems, I know.
Here's hoping I'm able to make October a better month than September. I saw on my old paper calendar that my original goal from this May had me at 160 by now, which is like, thirty nine pounds less than where I actually am! Talk about a kick in the pants. Regardless I'm more than ready to be working towards something great again, whether it be weight loss or achieving some other dream. Here's hoping I can do it.
And here's hoping tomorrow is another great day! I'll have to stop and get a protein shake on my way to the mattress store(s).