Sunday, September 29, 2013
I guess that I have been away for a long time, huh.....? I am sorry for the absence but please know that I have carried all of you with me... but letting go of yesterday has taken it's toll! For instance there have been too many thoughts in many different directions..... I had never thought about what it would mean not to be in agriculture in any way or not working at all! So it is just going to take time that I hadn't planned for. In other words, I have been learning the true meaning of Nicole Sobon's words when she says that sometimes the hardest part isn't letting go but rather learning to start over.
I made it through chemo w/o 9/9. My counts did drop but when we did blood work the following Monday, the Dr. immediately gave me an IV liter of sodium. I was not weak after that for the next 9 days so I don't know what it means now as I was out walking with the church group and suddenly I could not do but .3 miles and I had been at about 3/4 mile earlier....I don't have blood work until the 7th. This is very different since that was a weekly happening in WI, then I had to wait to see what I could do on my own.... I am getting excellent care here also, it is just a different philosophy.
While I was going to the WI clinic all dental work was to be scheduled before chemo. ugh....here, we have postponed chemo for a week so I can "catch-up" hence tomorrow I will have dental surgery that really needs to be done! (wish me luck) The next round of chemo will be for the week opening 10/7. So it is still going to be a little while before I get back o everything. I seem to be able to only get on the computer about 45 minutes in the morning and maybe another 30 minutes later in the afternoon. I was used to spending about 6-7 hours a day in WI so even that is an adjustment to learn about how to deal with my passion and the ideal that I have to be perfect or I am not doing it.
It really feels good to be talking to you! My cats really like it here and have adjusted well! Some of you will appreciate this!!!! I had a copperhead snake in my front yard this morning, One thing that I dreaded about coming back and I really enjoyed about the Northwoods....NO POISONOUS SNAKES!
I will try to use this time to at least do something and would love to have your input at how to make it work!!!
Take care and know that you are very special to me.....even when I am not there!