The insane emotional food spiral.
Sunday, September 29, 2013
If you've been reading, my knee hurts. It's been hurting pretty crazy for the last month. It's causing me to not be able to move as far or as fast as usual. It's making me crazy.
So I'm frustrated. When I'm frustrated I tend to start to crave sweet things. I do not have many of the things I would normally munch on, so I'm going at some things that are sweet, but not as desirable, so therefore I eat more of them.
Then I get frustrated that I'm eating that much again.
Fortunately I start every day new. Sometimes it's just getting to the end of the day that is a problem. I'm not really hungry in the middle of the day where most people would eat a decent lunch, so with one small snack in the middle of the day, I'm hungry by dinner time.
Then comes the after dinner sit down and eat. I know I'm doing it. I know I'm not hungry, but I do it anyhow.
I know i can stop it. I know the things I can do instead of eating, but I do it anyhow.
I need to stop. Stop going to food out of frustration. Stop complaining about gaining weight because I'm making improper choices. Stop making the wrong choices. Stop the mindlessness that I'm gaining.
I need to start. Start finding other ways to work out that aren't hard on my knee. Start leaving the food on the shelf. Start embracing my husband's new found health kick. Start finding things to occupy my time that also takes up my hands so I can't eat while I'm doing those things.
I can do it! Fortunately I don't stay on the spiral long. It's easier to slide down the spiral, but the long walk back up is worth it.
Today's Holidays: VFW Day, National Coffee Day and Goose Day.