Sunday, September 29, 2013
I think I like this weekly weighing thing. I am not preoccupied with every little up and down on the scale. When I reach my goal, I will probably go back to daily weighing just to keep track of things, but on the way down, this method is better for my peace of mind.
Two full pounds this week! I wasn't sure what to expect, since I've been eating in the upper range of my calorie limit. It's closer to what I will be doing on maintenance, so I guess in a way, I'm working on maintenance already! Then maybe it won't be so hard to do when I am not losing anymore. The key is my consistent workouts.
It's also easier to maintain three days of cardio than it is four or five. One thing I'm doing more of, though, is strength training, since ST is easy to do while I'm in the gym doing cardio. I'm trying to get faster between machines, which is happening some, mostly because I've finally figured out where the dang machines are instead of wandering up and down looking!
I gained almost a third of a percent of muscle this week and was up more than half a percent in water, so that two-pound loss this week was all fat! Lost an inch from my bust, waist, and abdomen. I could tell in my jeans this week -- no little muffin top. Size 16, still, but at least I didn't get back into 18s and 20s.
I'm probably going to have to wear a lot of skirts until I get back into my 8s here in a few months. I don't have any clothes between 16 and 8! I don't mind wearing baggy pants for awhile, though. It'll be winter and who cares. I might go to the thrift store and pick up a couple pair of 12s just to tide me over.
I cannot WAIT until I can bring up my size 8s, 6s, and 4s from downstairs. That will really be a feeling of accomplishment. I'll feel myself again.
It's been weird, losing a lot, then gaining a good bit back, in terms of how I see myself. I couldn't say I was a runner anymore. I couldn't look at obesity statistics that are on the news all the time and feel relieved I wasn't contributing to those numbers. I wasn't angry, just disappointed and felt a real loss of what had been my new identity as a "normal" person, and a disciplined person. I do NOT see being fat as equal to being lazy, but I did see my new body as a manifestation of my new self-discipline, to be committed to my routines.
But I still see myself as a success. I know how to take weight off effectively. Soon, that will show outside as much as I feel it inside.