Saturday, September 28, 2013
Today, a good friend of my family married a girl I graduated high school with. I was really nervous about the wedding because I knew there would be some HS classmates and I was nervous about seeing them. I have always been big and after HS, I only got bigger. But even though I've lost 100lbs, today was still going to be a battle for me. Today's battle, however, was one against myself. The battle was knowing that, no matter what, whether my classmates recognize me or not and whether they notice a smaller me or gonot, was I still going to be happy with me at the end of the day. Well, I got ready for the wedding and I felt great. I got to the wedding and began seeing some familiar faces and began to feel the nerves again. I sort of held eye contact with some of them, but I broke it off nit wanting o be recognized...even though I really did. (I know, girls are confusing.) After the wedding, I went to the reception and was thankful to be at a table with my family, but we also ended up right next to a table full of girls I graduated with. Well, about half way through the evening, one of them came over and said hi and that I looked great. That made me feel pretty good, but I also felt shy about it too cAuse of the awkward "yes I used to be fat but not so much anymore" feeling that so many of us feel. A short while after that though, I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when another one of the girls caught me and said pretty much the same thing. I again, felt good, but still awkward. ell, I ended up out on the dance floor after a while and talking with the bride. She then told me that many of the people we graduated with had commented to get about how familiar I looked to them. And after she told them it was me, they couldn't believe it. I think that was honestly the highlight of my night. Even though they did recognize and they didn't notice though, I can honestly say, even if they hadn't, I would still be happy with me I've worked hard to get here and even though I'm not finished yet, I am happy with who I am and where I am at right now.