I have been away from Spark People for quite some time
and during this time away I had to be REAL with myself. I've had to dig deep within myself to embark on this come back of wellness and physical fitness. I've had to come to grip with the real reason I have used food as a drug to comfort and to numb me through the vicissitudes of life. The stressors that triggers the overindulgences such as: relationships, family, friends, children, failures, successes (yes successes!) , rejection, abandonment, resentment and betrayals. I had to face off with the TRUTH. This was an AHA!
moment for me on many, many levels but I knew that in order to get to the root of the REAL matter with food I had to go deep and peel back the layers that covered why my eating habits, and physical fitness had tipped the scale.
This time I return with sheer determination and focus
I am committed to this healthy living journey. Its about ME, and the totality of myself. My physical well being, mentally, spiritually, relationally, financially and emotionally
I've started on a journey again that has been a life long struggle for me, but I have a new perspective on why I am so motivated and determined on this leg of the journey because.... Its about ME! I must conquer the fear that I have of being defeated and achieve the goals that I have set for myself once and for all and incorporate them into a lifestyle not just a temporary fix. I must prioritize MYSELF of importance to know that my workouts are for ME and about ME. I've tried the fad diets the pills and even DENIAL yes!! Denial its a super... POWERFUL drug its kept me high for years...., but I had to embark upon implementing real changes and accepting the TRUTH of why
I am where I am and what I need to do to incorporate life changing transformations for ME!
I love the new ME as each day goes by more and more. I love the fact that I am now doing the things I really love. Reading, writing, ministering, becoming athletic again. I'm walking, cycling, and I am even training to run again
. I love the early morning track walks. It gives me the opportunity to enjoy the nature that God created as I walk and talk to God.
I have learned to know that remaining consistent to REAL changes in your life equals RESULTS
and if you take the time to implement necessary changes RESULTS will follow....
the next time you feel like giving up, throwing in the towel, feeling defeated, having a pity party and skipping that workout remember its about ME!
I LOVE ME!!! and