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Day 5 or 60 ED....

Friday, September 27, 2013

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Day 5 for me started out like all the others I eat healthy during the day, then I get home and it's down hill. Got home for worked and binged on sweets which is my weakness. And the sweets was not something I bought so it wasn't like i was planning on eating them, but when I seen them I couldn't resist.

I managed to push threw the same feelings...failure and feeling like my eating ways will never change no matter how hard I tell myself Im going to eat clean....and managed to get in a very difficult workout. I printed an at home circuit workout that looked fun, but it made me feel worse mentally. The routine seemed easy but I guess I didn't realize how much weight I've gained and somethings I use to do I can't do as well.

It tore my confidents to shreds, but I manged to finish the workout and Iam proud of myself no matter what. I struggle daily but I keep faith and tell myself one day you will get through the woods peak out and never look back. I will get through this and I will conqur my eating disorder and obesity.

Later that evening I had another binge at bed time. Its sad but it's the truth and I take blame for everything I put in my body. I first ate a healthy snack fruit and whipped cream, but I felt hungry after and wanted more to eat so I chose unhealthy food instead of something healthy.

Bare with me sparkfriends I will improve I will get better and it start here daily with me writing blogs, my public diary, about my daily struggles and accomplishments. emoticon
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    Don't stop trying! If you are like me, it takes a Lot of attempts before I can get real a streak going. I'm working on one now. It's Never easy but no matter what do not quit!

    Have you had a chance to read the first SP book about positive spirals and how to get a streak going? it was a lot of Ah Ha moments and a real help to me.

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    1511 days ago
    i also can do really well all day at work and then want sweets when i get home. i do get frustrated when i do some yoga poses because the weight i gained prevents me from fully getting into them. but i keep doing what i can trying to appreciated my body for what it can currently do and not punish it with food.
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    1511 days ago
    Sorry to hear about your binges, but don't let them get you down. They are over with. Now you start another day.

    Is it possible to rid your house of all the sweets and unhealthy foods that tempt you, at least until you get control of your eating disorder? I know that I find it difficult to resist sweets, especially anything chocolate, when they're in the house. So, I try not to buy them nor bring them into the house.

    Another option is to find one treat that you enjoy and buy a small amount of it so that you don't overindulge. For me, I sometimes buy mini Tootsie Rolls and measure them out. They help with my sweets and chocolate cravings. I can grab a premeasured snack bag when I feel the need for a treat.

    Changing our eating habits can be very difficult. It took many years to develop these habits and it will take time to break the bad ones. As far as I'm concerned, it will be a lifelong battle.

    Remember, "All things in moderation." You don't have to totally cutout all the things you like to eat, you just need to cut back portion sizes and treat some foods as treats rather than everyday foods. Even taking a favorite recipe and making substitutions to some of the ingredients allows you to keep eating the foods you love with less guilt.

    You are a strong, wonderful woman! You can do this! I believe in you! emoticon
    1511 days ago
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