Day 181 - Stressed and Making Bad Decisions
Friday, September 27, 2013
I feel like I fell off the band wagon. I am running after it though...
My ankle is STILL in pain
My work (working a double today) STILL has bed bugs...now in three other rooms!
My calorie range is off the charts! ( I did show a pound loss this morning, though...)
My exercise is poor.
I hope I don't slip into the belief that getting back on track is too hard and might as well quit mindset. I craved a Coke and actually texted my son to drop one off for me, which he did. Drinking it now....
I am terrified that I may not knowingly bring home a bed bug and now my house is infested. I freaked out when I saw a small black bug on my wall last night. Rationally, I don't think it was a bed bug since it was shiny black and bed bugs are opaque and reddish.
Today at work I stripped off all the remaining bedding, yesterday's clothes, used towels, mats, pj's etc to bag and wash. Earlier this week, several people came and cleaned out all the bedrooms and took all their clothes to the laundromats.
When the clients come home from their day programs, they cannot even enter their rooms or that side of the house until near bedtime. After the pest control people spray, we have to wait at least 4 hours before even entering their rooms. Then it needs to be cleaned.
I requested air tight mattress and box spring covers but that might not happen....
One client's nice recliner was put out to the curb for pickup but it disappeared. I hope no person picked it up for personal use! The recliner should have been destroyed with the cushions slashed.
I so cannot wait until everything is back to normal and I am in my little world of eating right, exercising right, and losing the weight again!
The biggest lessons I learned from this are that the stress and the boredom do make me physically hungry. I need to re-channel my thoughts into other plans of actions such as swimming when my ankle is ever sprained again, be more diligent with my eating by keeping myself focused and busy, and learn how to better manage the stress. I can now see why ex-smokers go back to smoking during stressful times......
Counting the days to normalcy...