Friday, September 27, 2013
Sooooo I realized that I have not been the best at losing and it is because I can get rather complacent and find all kinds of excuses to be just that.
I have lost a total of 16 lbs in 16 mnths time. I re adjusted my start time as I had put it at Dec 2012 it was I think the 5th time I started back up on SP. But I decided to put it back to my original date around April 2012 as a reminder. This was an accountability to myself.
I have had to get pretty honest and ask myself "How bad do I want this?" "Am I truly willing to do the footwork?" "Can I remind myself that excuses are only good for sabotaging." "Can I accept that life will sometimes get in the way but I am to keep going, not to the best of my ability as that runs into complacency, but better than my best." "Can I look at two steps forward and one step back in reverse, One step back but two steps forward.?" (read that in an article) "Can I look in the mirror and instead of seeing an overweight woman's flaws , see an overweight woman accomplishing good habits and good health that will have huge payoffs." "Can I accept the fact that I deserve a better quality of life." It is easy to say Yes! But it is another to integrate it into daily life. It is about believing and having those beliefs become as natural as breathing. That is my new goal more important than beating a deadline to lose weight. It is about believing that I can step out of the old behavior into the new for a good quality of life both physically and emotionally.