Thursday, September 26, 2013
I realized that today marks 90 days on SparkPeople... 90! That's 3 months of what should be progress which has resulted in TWO 2-week periods of backtracking, not tracking, and not losing weight. Why does this process have to be so frustrating... I've barely lost in that time. I know I should be happy for continuing to get right back on the wagon after falling off, but I wanted to be so much further than I am right now, and it does suck and I am super frustrated and down about it. I get so excited for everyone else who has seen their body change and lost some weight and I just want that to be me, too. I want to know what that sense of accomplishment is like. In high school, I flirted right around 220. Since college, I've gotten past 250 and I desperately want to be back to high school (and maybe beyond) by the time my semester is over. Seeing 242 on that scale has been heartbreaking - because of the weddings, it's been stagnant for over 3 weeks.
I also want to apologize to all of my Spark Friends for lacking in participation on the site, whether it be checking in personally with your posts/blogs or being active on my own page. I've been using school as an excuse and although getting Facebook on my phone is much easier than staying connected on here, I know there's no reason why I can't log onto my computer for a half hour each day to check in.
I'm so good with making healthy lunches each day but when I get back to the apartment at night, I get cravings for all sorts of things. We have very limited beverages here, so that's a non-issue, but I always feel like I'm justified in eating more than a serving size of something (why only make one quesadilla when we know everything is great in pairs?!). I try to pre-plan meals and keep in mind to add salads instead of starchy sides, but I still feel as though I'm always closer to the high end of my calorie range if not over my suggested daily intake. Does anyone else have that problem?? Maybe I just need to have less options, although then I struggle with trying to have a "balanced" meal with fruits, veggies, meat, etc.
I'm back on my C25k training plan. I know, I know, I did a 5k on Saturday. But there is always room for improvement on my speed and stamina and I am determined to finish this thing out. SO as of right now, my next day is Week 6 Day 3. Then we get into the RUNRUNRUN sections to finish it out. Woo! I dread the day when I will have to take my running inside but I am determined not to give up like I did last year. I CAN be a runner for life, and I hope to do so.
Hope everyone has been doing well this week. TGI(almost)F!