Thursday, September 26, 2013
Well, I think my last entry alienated my audience. Anger does that. I want to forgive but it is a tall order most days. It takes work. I did go clothes shopping this week though and without spending a lot I got some great stuff. I got a multicolored scarf that's made of viscose and wool. The colors are deep blue and blue green on the other side. There is also grey, plum and violet on the scarf. That cost 4.99 at ARC Value Village and looks new. I got a plum colored Lands End shirt to go with it. Again, only 4.99. and looking brand new at the ARC Value Village thrift store where I help people with disabilities even as I shop. So I don't need to feel guilty about money spent. I need the clothing and it serves a good cause and somehow I always manage to find stuff that's not far from new.
On my second trip this week for much needed jeans and trousers, I went to Savers where I can usually find my size. Savers is another thrift store and it helps people new to this country learn retail skills and also helps people with disabilities. I got Levi's in my size that look like new jeans. When I was young I always wanted Levi's but never got them. I could never afford them. They were only 12.99 and as I say they appear to be almost brand new. Retail price is about 50.00 or more for Levi's these days. Then I got a pair of jeans that my age contemporaries would wear which is called Coldwater Creek, which is an upscale women's brand. Those were 14.99 and I think retail they might have run 50 to 70. Again they were like new. Then I got a pair of grey and black woven trousers and they only went for 5.99 and the brand was Briggs. About 28.00 to 35.00 retail. They were not like brand new but once I iron and starch them they ought to look nice. Then I got an indulgence which was a top for 4.99 which looked new and was that striated stuff but it had textures and colors like this wispy fabric on the smock and sateen on the middle panel. I don't know why textures always draw me in. I should look at the garment care tags before falling for different textures and look for more things I can mix and match. That was my modest shopping haul and it made me happy. It made me feel like I have a mission and a niche on this earth.
What would make me even happier is to lose this weight, get healthier physically and mentally and add more pieces slowly but surely, never forgetting I take up space on this planet and deserve good things despite my crabby moments. 97% of the time I'm a really nice person and do a lot for other people. It would make me happy to keep acknowledging and reaffirming my place on this planet this way. No matter what weight I am I deserve decent clothes.