Happy Thursday sparkers. Hope all of you are having a great day despite the various challenges many of us may be experiencing right now. I want to share with you this helpful email I received from a support group I belong to. I read this sometime ago but I didn't save it, and over time it was forgotten. I hope in some way you will receive some benefit from this, as I find it to be very helpful.
I AM YOUR DISEASE
I am your disease. Give in to me and eat that extra food. I love it when
you slip, because I can feel you coming under my power. Once I have you,
you are powerless; you cannot resist me. And if you choose me over your
God, I have the power to block off contact with your H.P.
I am proud of how cunning and subtle I am. I don't stand in front of you
brazenly offering food. No, I lie in wait within you, perfectly willing to
take a back seat to your steps, your tools and your OA meetings, if that's
what you want.
Usually, when you are feeling down, you have had enough of me and you are
apt to turn once again to your God. But when you're feeling good, I'm ready
for action, because you will let down your guard.
You are foolish to think that at any given time I am not a strong
influence within you. When you choose me, I become more powerful. You think time gives you immunity, but it doesn't. You assume that, because you've had me under control for a while, I'm beaten. But I'm not. I'm still here,
watching for an opportunity to begin my destruction.
The only time my power is useless is when you turn me over to your Higher
Power. That seems to be the only thing that can save you from me anytime,
I love it when you don't recognize my power, because it means you will
fall into my trap sooner of later. Go ahead, have some extra snacks, eat too
much at meals, take back all the foods you can't handle. You say the
desire has gone? Don't be so smug.
I'll never leave you. So, if you intend to save yourself and your
precious abstinence, you're just going to have to keep on handing me over to
This one is what can be...
I am your friend. I hold out my hand and bring you faith.
I award you serenity and self-esteem.
I bestow upon you peace and acceptance.
I wrap you in love and tender the shield of knowledge.
I volunteer humility and shower you with confidence.
I bequeath spiritual growth, emotional advancement and physical revival.
I am your friend; I will lead you out of the darkness into the light.
I will carry you when you are weak and escort you through honesty.
I will provide tools for the battles and binding for your wounds.
I am your friend. I will teach you abstinence and release you from burden.
I will initiate forgiveness and I will foster willingness.
I will nurture ambition and claim back your life.
I am your friend.
My name is "Recovery."