Wednesday, September 25, 2013
I am just blooming with thoughts that ramble all over the place. It is so difficult not to get depressed with what is going on with Jeff and not knowing when they are going to tell him that there are no more treatment options. Each week that goes by and the time for another pet scan draws nearer I feel very down. I do a lot of thinking and planning on doing things and that is the way that I cope. Once I get my mind on an upcoming project it is very difficult to turn it off to get some sleep at night. I have started playing classical music when I go to bed and that does seem to help. I have so many projects in mind that at times it overwhelms me and I get upset because I can't do them now. I have to do a little at a time for financial purposes. I also have to learn to do a lot of things that I have never done before as I have to do it all myself.
Guess I am having a pity party and I refuse to go further with it. Did not make it to the Y today only because I was too lazy. I have no excuse. I have done a lot more in the house as far as sorting through things, getting winter clothes in and ready to wear, bagging up more to take to Good will, running th sweeper cooking a meal, now I am working on the kitchen. I have part of the dishes done and one counter cleaned off. Will go out in a little bit and dry out the dishes and get the rest washed and another counter cleaned off. Then I will tackle the stove and finish the microwave.
that is it for now
God bless and know that with the Lord I can face anything that comes my way. Today has been an off day again.