Wednesday, September 25, 2013
My beau and I have dealt with a big life changing event recently with the loss of his mom. After losing my dad several years ago, I did a LOT of reading up on the stages of grief, and I am sure both he and I are dealing with it in a normal and healthy way.
We have always talked a lot about everything, communication is very important in our relationship...and lately, I have been trying to talk with him even more.
His mom was his 'primary parent' as my dad was my primary. Primary as in the other parent being absent. I know what he is going through and never want him to feel alone.
I have also been reading up on my more frequent panic attacks, and one major change to my 'diet' is that I started taking niacin a few weeks ago. I had taken it in the past to help with my cholesterol and also to help with my depression and it has worked.
Apparently not so much of a help this time.
In reading up, niacin also causes the release of several hormones and I think this is what is messing with me. Not to mention that it may be flushing other things like magnesium out of my body.
I think I am going to stick with prenatal vitamins instead of trying to pick and choose what to supplement.
As for my lack of motivation...I am just burned out. I am burned out with thinking about food and finding time/energy to exercise.
I know how silly that sounds...a jobless person trying to find time to exercise, but what I mean by that is that I am back to eating 3 times a day and my beau is still at 6 times because of his hypoglycemia. The only time we really eat at the same time is supper. Other than that, we are on different sleeping schedules so breakfast and all other meals in the day are thrown off. I am always making something to eat or preparing, or making something nice for dinner that requires hours to prepare whether its because there is a lot of prep time or a lot of steps that take time. I do also clean up the house and have laundry to attend to.
This is all in between dealing with my own aches and pains and recent panic attacks.
Most of the time, by the time I have 30-60 minutes free, I am worn out, sore, or its late at night.
I will just have to figure that one out on my own I guess.