Wednesday, September 25, 2013
I've never, since I was a child, been able to be consistent with journaling, so it's really no surprise that I don't keep up with blogging very well either. There just seems to be so many other things to do with one's time...like exercise...or avoid exercise by filling your time with other things.
So last year, I started the Jaimie Eason program Live Fit. It was fantastic, until it got up to 90-120 mins a day 6 days a week....give me a break! That was not happening, not in my home with our schedule.
So I started the James Wilson program...again fantastic program and tonnes of support via Facebook. I highly recommend that one.
However, in the end all I could manage was to maintain my weight and lose nothing. In frustration and downright anger, I just quit on myself. I quit working out, and I didn't worry about what I ate, although I still tend to eat on the healthier side for the most part. Result was a gain of course.
See my hormones are, I'm sure, quite out of whack since my hysterectomy a few years ago, despite leaving the ovaries intact. Where I should have celebrated that I wasn't gaining, I got frustrated instead. Probably in part because weight really hadn't been an issue most of my life and I was working...HARD....Really hard...just to maintain and see nothing in results.
After a spring and summer of having my wee pity party, I'm ready to slowly start back into exercising. This time because I want to feel good, not be a certain weight. This time to enjoy the moment and the doing, and not focus on a goal that seems to be unattainable for some strange reason. This time I'm not going to focus on how much weight or inches I've lost (ok I have set a small goal there, but it's not my main focus, it's sort of a back of mind thing), but on how I feel, how my skin looks, if I can keep up with others when walking without getting a bit winded, and how much I'm enjoying life. Life is too short to worry and get discouraged by things that aren't in your control...so from now on my focus will be the above and I will celebrate any little losses that happen to come along with that as a bonus.