Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.

    MSANITAL   85,637
80,000-99,999 SparkPoints

How things can change...

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Fast.. what was going to be a day of blogging about my bike ride I did this weekend and how I felt after the ride and the next day which was "high" and happy and feeling like everything was going well. and then today.. I hear bad news.. which has hit me hard. my oldest daughter has cervical dysplasia which is pre cancer she was diagnosed last year and 2 weeks ago they found more which all in all it has a chance to be cervical cancer. I am so trying to be strong for her which I did not let her see my fear or my weakness and now that she is not with me right now and I am alone. I am letting it out.. and I am doing it in a wrong way. I am an emotional eater and my emotions are so high right now.. with that and the huge bike ride that I am doing for charity this Friday I am so on edge I know I am not making sense and I know I am rambling so I am going to cut this short.

I will say that being here and typing and thinking and knowing that I will get a hug from you all makes me feel much better and the feeling of giving up and just eating and eating and eating is replaced with the feeling of hope, and faith.. which I know is I me.. but needs to come out

Thank you

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JANETRIS 9/30/2013 4:46PM

    Anita, I am praying for your daughter and your family. Remember that activity and eating well are are the prescription for our well being too. Pounding out a few miles will help with the stress. I pray that the Docs are working their very best on your daughters behalf.... emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
EBRAINK 9/26/2013 11:30PM

Take a breath. Breath in, and out. And in again.
I hope she's getting good care, and hoping you can be there for her.
And do the ride. Not doing it won't help her, or you. Doing it punches cancer in the eye (a little, at least).

Report Inappropriate Comment
GEORGE815 9/26/2013 8:13PM

    Hard to have the strength to eat right when you have so much stress. Hope you can be strong for your daughter and she heals. Bless you and your family.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SNOWYOGA 9/25/2013 9:20PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HILLSLUG98239 9/25/2013 12:33AM

    I'm glad you trust us enough to share your feelings with us.

Report Inappropriate Comment
LUCKYDOGFARM 9/25/2013 12:16AM

    MsAnita, your entire family is in my prayers, as is the medical staff who will be working with your daughter.
Love and Hugs and Prayers!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUPERSEEKRIT 9/24/2013 11:42PM

    Hang in there and be kind to yourself. I had your daughter's diagnosis twenty years ago and I'm just fine today. They can do amazing things these days!

Report Inappropriate Comment
RECREATING_ME 9/24/2013 11:06PM

    I'm so sorry, Anita :( My prayers are with you and your daughter during this difficult time.


Report Inappropriate Comment
NEWAT56 9/24/2013 10:19PM

Hugs and prayers. I am an emotional eater so I can only imagine, but be strong for your daughter. Eat healthy and continue to exercise so your physical strength will be there for her too!

Report Inappropriate Comment
1CRAZYDOG 9/24/2013 8:47PM

    Definitely hugs and prayers for both of you. I am so sorry!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MARILYNROBERT 9/24/2013 7:38PM

    emoticon I think it's going to be good for you to do the bike ride. It will make you feel better to doing something like that with your body even if you can manage good eating right now. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ELLES26 9/24/2013 7:29PM

  emoticon Hope she is getting great care and wishing the best for her!

Report Inappropriate Comment

Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

Log in to post a comment.

Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.

Other Entries by MSANITAL