While I was driving into work this morning I started thinking about what will help me stick with this whole "diet". I started thinking that I really need something weekly to keep me accountable. I thought about having someone weigh me in every week, like my mom or maybe a sibling. But then I started thinking about some of the issues I have been having lately and I feel like having them see my weight will make me feel even worse about myself. And the first week I see a gain I know I will stop. So I started thinking about going back to Weight Watchers. I know it works, but I also know it is expensive. But then it hit me, wouldn't losing this weight, and finding myself and happiness be worth the money? It would. So tonight I will be going back to WW. They have a meeting at 6 so if I go straight from work, I will get there in plenty of time.
Last night was Zumba and I got in a really good work out. I am pretty sore today from it. I have been going to Zumba alone since Leslie had been on vacation the past 2 weeks. Some of my other friends have been coming with me randomly but none on a regular basis. Last night I kind of felt awkward. It seems like everyone else there knows other people so they all talk to each other. Usually I can get over that feeling but last night I just felt awkward. Luckily, once we start, we don't stop until it's over. After Zumba I met Leslie at Subway. She didn't go to Zumba. She wanted to talk about some stuff that she has going on. We both ended up talking about issues we have been having. I talked to her for just a little bit but didn't really go into details about everything. Afterwards I was surprised that I actually did feel a little bit better. I know that talking about my depression will help, it's just so hard to talk about. I just want to shut everyone out.
Last week was Ciara's (my brother's fiance) bachelorette party. I was dreading every second of it. She wanted to go dancing. At my weight the last thing I want to do is go out to a club and dance. I have never enjoyed dancing and when my friends used to go, I always found an excuse to miss out. But this time there was no getting around it. We met up at the Greene (an outdoor mall here in Ohio) and had dinner. She wanted to try a new place, Pies and Pints but there was a 2 hr wait so we went to EO burger. I had only been there once but I remember it being really good. I am not really a huge burger person and luckily they have a portobella burger (just a mushroom, no meat) and it is really good! They also have garlic fries which are so not healthy but amazing. I normally don't really like french fries but the garlic ones are wonderful.
The girls at EO Burger
After we ate it was a little early to head over to Adobe's but they insisted on just going over there to hang out rather than at the restaurant. When we got over there it was empty. There was one other person there and he was some random dude doing some dancing on the dance floor. You could tell he thought he was awesome but I don't think anyone else would have agreed. Ciara got pretty bored early on but as more and more people showed up the girls got up and danced. Me, Michelle and Liz (my oldest brother's girlfriend) just hung out at the table the whole night. I did end up having a blast with my friends that came (Ciara and I used to be roomates so we have some mutual friends now). The biggest worry I had about the whole night was getting sweaty. I have to say though, even when it was really warm in there from having so many people crammed into the place, I didn't sweat at all. I think Ciara ended up having a pretty fun night.
Liz, me, Michelle, Lisa, and Morgan
Me, Ciara and her sister Maylan. (Ciara is in the middle)
Me Michelle and Lisa.
Me and Morgan
Me and Lisa!
Other than that and work I haven't really been up to too much. The kids have been over the past two weekends. They are so cute. Alex and Abbie are both in soccer so when it is my weekend I have to take them to their games. They both are so fun to watch. Adelynn doesn't seem to care too much for the games but as long as we bring something to keep her entertained she isn't too bad.
Alex playing soccer this past weekend.
Abbie and I hanging out during Alex's game.
Adelynn got to enjoy some ice cream to celebrate being a big girl and having no potty accidents.
I am so jealous of their cute pajamas!