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Welcome to the BLC23 (a not-so-inspiring blog)

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

When I last left this blog I was panicky and had lost track of myself in a week gone mad. I'd like to say it's gotten better, but - alas - it has not. I'm learning to let go of the things I can't control and be content with my best at the moment without feeling like a failure, but the perfectionist in me is freaking out.

As is the sparker in me.

I still have "The Spark" - trust me - but my life's focus has shifted exponentially in the past few weeks. I began this journey during the school year and modified appropriately, but then came summer and I dove into a self-serving, wonderful world of healthy. I've come to love that and miss it terribly. I forgot about that whole craving of balance.

This brings me to the central purpose of my blog: BLC 23 begins tomorrow. I was hesitant to continue with the BLC because I feel like I can't uphold the same level of effort and work that I did the round prior. My time and mind are split in so many directions this time of year and sometimes I just want to scream. Or climb to the highest peak in Arizona, which was quite a release this summer. There also an adjustment to my journey. My stress levels rise, my schedule becomes packed, and I can't always do what I want to do - I imagine all you parents out there can empathize or can't stand my whining - but I am also in a new phase of my journey: the small loses and maintenance.

My initial goal when I set out in January was to lose 75 lbs, going from 225 pounds to 150 pounds, which ended with my final day in BLC22. Since that round ended another 4 pounds fell off. And I do mean fell. There was little change and it was in one week. Since then, my weeks have become the fall and winter whirl wind that they always are and I have maintained, which is still awesome. I'm good to maintain, but would like to find a natural, comfortable weight and so losing a touch more will allow me to see the reality of this.

I am not obsessed or crazy.

I aim to be strong and healthy, which I am almost at. I am finding fitness options that allow me to access these points better and I am moving nutrition around to be the most savvy. The portion I am not excelling at is the balance of it all.

And so that is the primary goal in BLC23: Balance. emoticon

Balance in eating.
Balance in exercising.
Balance in perspective.
Balance in sparking.

I've also set a goal of 140 pounds; this time it will be through patience and balance rather than "move, move, move". It is a whole new set of challenges that I hope to educate myself on in moving towards a long-term healthy life.

And now for the "before" photos, which are my first belly baring ones so be kind:

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LYNNIERN 9/25/2013 9:22PM

    As always, a great blog and really, perfect, well thought out goals for where you are right now. I'm really looking forward to reading about how you are going to achieve balance because I think it's something we all would benefit from.

Great pics..I can't wait until the day that I can put up pictures like that but I don't think my belly has seen the sunshine since 1974..Yikes! Hey, are you going to put up a side by side..the beginning of your journey to now?

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RUTHIET_456 9/24/2013 5:47PM

    I hear you on the balance part. That's a hard one for me. With my all-or-nothing thinking I tend to try to do everything at once and then peter out. You have made amazing progress. You are beautiful, strong and resilient. You will conquer whatever goal you set your mind to, because you're special that way.
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WAIANAEGAL 9/24/2013 3:07PM

    Carly, I understand the need to be tough on ourselves... but then we also must forgive and forget... moving on to a productive journey.

I put back on half of what I'd lost... it had taken me 35 years (not really) to get the 90 pounds off, really a year and a half but I'd carried it for 35 years.

I so admire all of our teammates who are juggling work, families, the busy lives... I'm retired, live alone and for the first time in my life I'm putting myself first... for me it's all or nothing...

Blessings to you and be kind to YOU!!!

Carlene

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GOING-STRONG 9/24/2013 2:46PM

    Great Blog Carly.... why is balance so tough? Similar to you, I find I'm an "all or nothing" sort of person and that doesn't create a balanced life. Just something we need to recognize and keep chipping away. You look great and congrats on maintaining. It isn't easy as maintenance makes you more complacent. Sparkpeople has been so instrumental in my daily journey as it helps me stay focused. You have got this girlfriend!

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OVERACTIVEELBOW 9/24/2013 2:16PM

    I don't need to be "kind"... I will be honest.
Great blog. Great pictures.
You are doing a wonderful job.
Yes, you need your balance which like riding a surf board you will always need to be adjusting with each little and big change in your minute/hour/day/etc.
You can do this. Have faith in yourself.. because I have faith in YOU.
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CFMOSS 9/24/2013 1:32PM

    balance is a good thing - your pictures look fine (mine didn't bare my belly) and your goal is reasonable I would be thinking. You can do this!!!!

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NINA-AKANE 9/24/2013 12:56PM

    I just looked at your photos and you have come a long way! Congrats on your journey thus far--You'll get there! Keep pushing! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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