Tuesday, September 24, 2013
I have learned that my disarray of eating patterns is ultimately my responsibility. Yes, I am the one who eventually puts the food in my mouth. I have never been force fed. However, I do recognize triggers that cause me to make wrong choices and over eat: Some are actual foods, some are events, some are people and some are emotional.
I was, let's say, challenged to increase the variety of what is currently on my revolving menu. So far my choices have helped me release into the atmosphere, never to be found again, 31 pounds. The person challenging me is someone I respect because of her education and background.
You know what I once again discovered? My foodie brain just waits to get an "okay go for it" message! This time it was a variation in my diet. I tried something new, saying to myself, "I'll just try a 3 inch by 3 inch piece." Oh, yeah, right sure! How many times have I said THOSE exact words while trying to get healthy!!?? Too many to count! So alias, it led to a food bender. Sugar, flour, fats...my go to indulgences in any consumable form.
Well after 2 days of cravings, pacing, and fighting "head hunger" I am back on track and feel more peaceful. (Peaceful enough to write this post.) I wonder, "Will my life ever be without those hellish moments with food?" I hope so. Today, I will choose to be healthy, check in with my PEEPS, and treat myself kindly.
Today, I will let that well meaning, advice giving person know that I need to stick with what works today as far as my health. Maybe in the futre I can expand my menu!