Tuesday, September 24, 2013
I really had to power through yesterday, it was a bit of a struggle. Especially in the evening after work but some after lunch too. My sweet tooth was acting up (probably because I ate cookies last week and I've really limited my sugar previously, so now I've fed the craving!). So after lunch I was feeling like cake and cookies and pudding would be perfect, I don't have any of those things thank goodness and I ate an orange instead. After dinner I was feeling the same way, but I had some sugar free gum and that took the edge off.
I was feeling very down in the evening, I can't even explain why, I had a good day, it wasn't as crazy as I thought it was going to be and I even got some things done around the house. I wanted to drink beer and eat sweets, but I just decided I needed to power through, I just needed to push myself, I needed to tell that nasty little girl in my head (see previous blog) to shut up, that I WOULD NOT be happy at 172, that I WOULD see 160's soon and I WOULD reach my goals! I decided that it was ok to be upset about being "4.4 pounds behind" in my goal, but I needed to stop dwelling on it, life happens.
So even though I told myself all this, I should let you know, I'm not super human, and I didn't really buy it all yesterday. But when I recorded dinner and had stayed in range, and I knew my water cup and I had been best friends, I decided to let it go and just let it be.
Today the scale showed me a pretty 170.4. I am feeling much more confident. Although I do have some anxiety still about 160's, they seem like a dream world, so close but I'll never get there.....so today, I'll power through again!