Tuesday, September 24, 2013
I lost a little weight this summer. I stayed on track so well I even impressed myself the first month. Then vacation, and ... oops.
I'm ready for a fresh start. My kids are back in school, and I have regular time alone for the first time in 17 years. I'm still playing catch-up with unfinished work, and that will probably continue for the foreseeable future. I also know how important it is to give more priority to my health. I never have enough time for everything I should/want to do, so I aim to increase my exercise and cut back my calories to feel more energetic again. I'm worth it! I need to keep repeating that to myself, my brain believes it but my emotions get stuck on worrying about all the work I "need" to do. But I know that when I don't take care of myself, and allow myself some of life's joys like exercise and enjoying this body of mine, I feel in the dumps and too tired and discouraged to do the things I care about. Losing weight would be nice, but I know what I most need is more energy, more confidence, less guilt, more cheer.
So, walking is great, but I know myself, and what really helped me in the past was rowing on a stationary rower. Tonight I got back on it after a long time off, because I felt too full and not enough exercise. I know I should eat less, and I also know getting regular exercise helps lower my appetite, and makes me feel like being even more active. So tonight I got back on my rower, and made a commitment to myself to include that as part of my exercise, to work towards feeling strong, fit, confident, and more ambitious again.
And humble! I pray God help me.