Tuesday, September 24, 2013
After these past 2 blurry weeks of emotional carnage, horrible self esteem, complete lack of appetite - coupled with everything tasting of straw, a huge lump in my heart that seems to be the source of all my grief...I finally had a day where I felt a little bit better. Still low energy - but I vacummed most of the house, dragged my self to the gym and did 30 minutes on the low end of my cardio range on the elliptical -- I still sweat, and and I was moving the whole time, but I did not push myself, and I still burned 300 calories.
Then I went to yoga class, so I feel better from that too.
I hope this trend continues, because this emotional rollercoaster is taking it's toll on not just my mind, but my body. I cannnot tell you how weak I've been. Yesterday I was dozing on my couch for almost 3.5 hours in total because standing was too difficult.
I'm glad I went out, and though it wasn't the best workout by a very long shot, it did beat not going at all. Hands down.
I am hoping for a few days of no added drama....I can't cope with more right now. I just need to connect with myself again for a while. Funny -- now I have such a big and wonderful support team in place to help me through this, and right now I just don't want to talk to anyone about anything -- I just need me time for a while.....