Tuesday, September 24, 2013
So I've been sporadic on Sparkpeople. I have been on an emotional roller coaster. Some days I feel like I'm just hanging on and trying to ride through this. Other days I feel more in control. I cleaned out the kitchen cabinets and cupboards today. I got rid of anything that I have no business eating. I have a bag of stuffing and instant potatoes to donate. I got rid of expired items and items that have been open for a while. Now I know exactly what I have and what need to buy when I go grocery shopping. I can plan better and eat better. I made appliances and cookware easier to get to or use. I'm trying to be productive instead of moping and feeling bad. I'm still dealing with things, just trying to keep them from overwhelming me.
I talked to one of my cousins today, he made me feel better. We are trying to build and strengthen our relationship. He lives 3 hours away and has a wife and little girl. He's 3 days older than me and we grew up together but drifted apart when we got older. His childhood couldn't be more different than mine. We were both the odds kids out though and that might be the reason we get along so well. I need to build on and strengthen all my relationships, with family and friends. I'm having lunch with a friend of mine that I hadn't really seen or talked to in a while. She and I talked at length Sunday. I have another friend who invited me to go to the Italian Festival this weekend. Then I'm going to spend time with my sister on Friday after I take her to her doctor appointment. She will be going every week now until the baby comes. I'll make it, I just have to roll with the ups and downs.