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Monday, September 23, 2013

My neighbor across the street, the only other full-time resident near me, is moving. I have noticed them coming and going a lot the past couple of weeks, and bam! Friday, a for sale sign goes up in front of their house. They never returned after Thursday afternoon, so I haven't been able to talk with them about what made them put the house up for sale. That being said, it explains why I haven't been able to log on to our shared internet the past couple of weeks! They obviously are moving close by or wouldn't be able to come and go, so they probably discontinued their internet here and started it anew at their new place. That being said, I called the cable company and ordered internet so at least if I have a medical emergency, I can contact someone if I can't get phone service (which is intermittent anyway). So now I can log in again every day and keep up with my food and measurements! Woohoo! And of course, my friends blogs!

I ended the workshop yesterday on a sour note. Sometimes people can be so rude and obnoxious and I really can't tolerate that type of person well at all. I am over sensitive in the first place and when someone intentionally slights me, I don't handle it well. I was the oldest person at the workshop, all of the girls (6 total) were around 30 years old, so all the conversation was about day care and preschool and their children. I enjoyed listening to their stories, but of course, my children are their age (and older), so I didn't have anything to add to the conversation. So they would huddle in their little group and talk and leave me out. One particular girl made a point of saying little snide remarks to me and I just pulled up my big girl panties and took it on Saturday. But on Sunday, I had had enough and remarked back to her. But it hurt that no one else saw that she was being disrespectful to me and when I said something a couple of girls gave me a strange look like there was something wrong with me. At any rate, I cry easily too, so I held it back as long as I could, but finally left about an hour early because I kept running it all through my mind and finally couldn't swallow that lump in my throat. I doubt that anyone noticed I was gone (except the girl that wasn't nice). She got her way and I was gone.

I do not have a hardened heart. I am sensitive. I hurt for other people. I notice when other people are slighted and try to make them feel better. I don't understand why people don't like me. I have hardly ever had any friends, and then they don't stay in touch, even though I keep trying to. I am left out any time I go to a large gathering of people I don't know. Some people never have had this happen to them in their lives. I have always had it happen to me. It is very disheartening. Does anyone else have this happen to them? How do you deal with it? It would be easy if I didn't care what anyone thinks of me, but I sincerely do. I don't know how to get people to like me.
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    I'm sorry you ended up on a sour note with your workshop. Sometimes when we don't feel good about ourselves we send out vibes that say "reject me, I'm not friend worthy". It's something that we don't know we are doing, but eventually it turns people away when we really want just the opposite. The best way to break that and attract the friends that you so desire is to get into God's word and begin to meditate on who He created you to be. You are a unique creation, fashioned in the likeness and image of God. He says in Psalm 139 that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. He created you to be a winner and not a loser in life; that means that you should attract the people that see Him in you. If you will begin to speak over yourself, out loud, that God has created you for friendships and that He will bring into your life the ones that are best for you then you will eventually believe it yourself and will then begin to attract those friends that you desire. Don't give up. God loves you and wants you to succeed. You're a beautiful lady, inside and out.

    God bless!

    1544 days ago
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