Monday, September 23, 2013
I have lost a LOT of weight, and most people I know are supportive and proud of me for reaching my goal. Today someone told me I need to regain at least 10 pounds because I look "sick".... um, really? I don't think so, and no one else seems to think so. I don't know where that came from, but for some reason it bothered me. I did regain about 5 pounds from my lowest weight, and I am happy where I am. I guess I should ignore this and move on, but for whatever reason it is sticking in my craw. I think part of it is fear that maybe I do look too thin. I couldn't see the reality of my physical self when I was morbidly obese, so maybe I can't see reality now that I am thinner? I noticed yesterday that I still don't really look at myself in mirrors, so I am going primarily on how I feel, how my clothes fit and the scale. There is also yesterday's hypothermia... maybe that was still noticeable today? Sigh. I have no answers.
On a happier note I had a lovely, active day. (Day 734 of my fitness streak.) Went kayaking for over 2.5 hours this morning on the Buffalo River. I was very happy to be paddling my own boat again. Came home, stopped by the Post Office to pick up a package, then went for a fast run. And I do mean fast! It only took me 11 minutes to do my 1.5 mile loop. I haven't been out for a run in about 3 weeks, so I figured a short run would be good. I didn't realize it would take so little time. LOL.
After my run I took the dog out for a 40 minute walk and did a little yoga and stretching. Plus I did a little ST. It all felt really good!
Now I am going to make a big pot of beef stew, then a batch of muffins. I consumed a lot of calories at breakfast and lunch, but I am probably going to stay within range today anyways. And I already burned off all those calories, so I need to eat more to fuel the rest of my day.