Monday, September 23, 2013
I don't know exactly what it is going to take to kick my butt into gear but I have to figure something out, asap. I have been doing so crappy lately. I just don't get why I can't find any motivation at all. I have decided that I will update my blog everyday with my food and exercise. I track on MyFitnessPal but maybe updating it here everyday and just getting some feelings out on a regular basis will help. The past few days have been pretty rocky. I just don't get it. I will have several really bad (emotional) days and then have a really good day. Like Friday was such a great day. I was in a good mood all day (until I got home but thats another story). I saw this post on facebook last night and it really hit home.
Stop being interested and GET COMMITTED!!
For a while now it seems as though I have just shown interest in losing weight but I haven't honestly been committed. I have to make this a priority once again and make it happen.
I still have not had the courage to blog about how I have honestly been feeling the past month or so. But it's not good and I know this has a major impact on my motivation. I have really been trying to tell myself that maybe, just maybe, I stick with this, and see major results, it will fix those other things. Or if nothing else, make them manageable. It is so hard to pull yourself out of depression when you feel like you are drowning in it. I am at work right now so I plan on doing another post tonight after Zumba and dinner.