Monday, September 23, 2013
I have believed for many years that there is no such thing as 'the whole wide world'. There is a space in which the 'idea' of the whole wide world unfolds, and that space is in the six, short inches that sit between our ears. Now, I have proof.
I have lived in my home for five years. Over the last two of those years, circumstances beyond my control have conspired to make me leave that home. So in my mind...I did. I gave it up willingly in my head. The last few months have at every turn, reinforced that concept, with my mother's financial downturn in July, being the last nail in the coffin of our immanent homelessness. I LEFT MY HOME IN MY MIND, to make the ACTUAL leaving much easier when it finally occurred.
And lo and behold...leaving our home was NOT the final outcome. Providence saw and knew and conspired to turn the craziest of events in our favor, and place me back in a position to not only be able to stay in our home, but to be able to take over my mother's financial obligations as well. For two years, I have been 'homeless' in my head. And in less than one week's time, my home has been 'returned' to me.
During this experience, I learned a few VALUABLE lessons I thought might be helpful to someone else. Here they are...
Nothing is EVER as it appears, except as it appears through the filter of my MIND. There REALLY is no whole, wide world. There is only my PERCEPTION of people, places and things.
That idea of homelessness ALL could have been avoided, had I not felt the need to 'protect' myself from the 'inevitable'. I was NEVER homeless. We were NEVER leaving. And yet, I have lived two years in my mind like I was and we were.
I only get to know the smallest, teeniest, tiniest part of the grand scene of life...and ANYTHING is always on the agenda! WE NEVER KNOW WHAT'S AROUND THE CORNER, no matter how things may APPEAR where we stand.
Acceptance and surrender WORK! Because had I actually been slated to lose my home, I still have never had more peace in my life, than by simply allowing events to take their natural course. In fact..forcing my DESIRES and WILL upon this situation could have DESTROYED the circumstances that actually turned it all back around and placed me where I am today.
I am GRATEFUL beyond words and beyond measure. For my home. For these lessons. For this entire experience...
If you find any of this useful, take what you need and leave the rest :-).