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Poor Choices

Monday, September 23, 2013

I ate ice cream. I didn't even enjoy it the way that I thought I would.
I didn't beat myself up as badly as I usually would. That's something new.
I told my husband afterward that I was sick of feeling this way, and that the taste just couldn't compare to the desire to feel better!
I actually craved veggies, and fruit.
This has never happened before, usually I would hate myself so much that I would eat more, and then I would give up.
Sound familiar?
I know many of us have traveled that same path enough times to put a permanent rut in the road to health and wellness!
Even though my journey is slow, I would rather go at a turtle speed and finish the race then run at hare's speed and give up.
I just want to keep heading forward.
For those of us who have used food for comfort you know that one cave in can cause us to spiral out of control.
The ice cream came later the same day that one of my best friend's told me that her eldest, darling son tried to commit suicide.
I know this boy well, and love him dearly.
If they had not come home when they did, it would have been too late.
For those who's lives have been touched by suicide, or near suicide you know the emotional effects on the family and friends.
We are rallying around them with our love. We are praying, praying, praying.
I ate the ice cream because dealing with the painfulness of the situation seemed too difficult for that moment.
I was wrong.
I am learning.


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COCK-ROBIN 9/24/2013 1:11AM

    And you will learn. Keep it up!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 9/23/2013 10:43PM

    Prayers for your friend and his family (and for you also). So happy that things turned out well.
You are doing a great job on your healthy lifestyle. Just continue to take one day at a time or even one hour at a time if necessary.
Blessings and hugs,

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KAYDE53 9/23/2013 9:22PM

    Hey, you recognized it for what it was, and now can take steps to prevent it from happening again. But as for the situation that caused it, so glad it had a positive outcome!! Hope & pray he gets the help that he needs!! emoticon

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SHELLS514 9/23/2013 5:40PM

    Learning to not turn to food for comfort is just one of the most difficult things there is. You certainly deserved to be comforted with that devastating news, I am so happy your friend found their son in time. I understand the pain of people who think suicide is the only way out as I had those thoughts myself when I was young. I was lucky and got through those years and I pray this young man is blessed with peace and understands how loved he is. I am so proud of you for not letting this little taste of ice cream send you out of control. You recognized it and didn't let it happen and that is a huge accomplishment Dee. You are so awesome and amazing, I am so blessed to have met you! emoticon emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 9/23/2013 4:06PM

    Some times I find myself having a taste for something. So I go for exactly what I like because I don't want to beat myself up over something that I didn't quite enjoy all that much....So be encouraged we all have those days, today I did better than the 2tacos & box of raisinets, red vines & other stuff over the weekend but I am taking inventory today. I need to change my mind way of thinking in order to receive the full vision God has for my life. I can't tell my daughter to lose weight if I haven't really either...

God bless & get back up again & again,


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BARBANNA 9/23/2013 2:07PM

    Glad for the positive ourcome! It could have been worse, sorry for your grief! Get back and the pony and ride!!! emoticon emoticon

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