Monday, September 23, 2013
my heart has an ejection fraction of about 12%. a healthy heart averages a 65% EF. as a result of a low EF, I struggle with shortness of breath, fatigue, chest pain, fluid retention and rapid pulse to varying degrees everyday. I attend a medical center every morning for an hour of iv antubiotics. before I leave each day, they set up my night iv antibiotic dose to be administered by a portable pump between visits.
I have been diagnosed as disabled because of the intensity of my illness. I also have an open chest wound that gets repacked with sterile dressing daily. I spend a lot of time in medical facilities. I experience chronic pain.
I have only quite recently been able to do exercise and sparkpeople, and I am concerned about realistically working with my limitations. I want to see progress but I know that overexertion could lead my back to being hospitalized. since my diagnosis I have spent about 2 months in the hospital, and don't look forward to returning.
today is a day when my body feels weak and I can barely make it through today's medical appointments. unless things improve greatly, i'll be spending most of the day in bed. I have to love myself enough not to push myself to exercise on days like this. there is an urge today to bully myself into pushing it to or over the limit, but past experience shows that to be a bad idea for me.