Monday, September 23, 2013
I thought I was going to have this great morning wearing my new blouse and I was wrong so this blog is a rant to get out my emotions.
Is it so hard for people not to be rude or condescending? Were they raised by wolves? For almost 3 months now I've wanted people to comment on the progress I've made and how proud I am of my accomplishments. Well, now I can apparently just simmer down with those shenanigans. My boss took one look at me this morning and said "... you're disappearing, you need to stop this diet". My coworker agreed. This type of negativity related to what THEY think I should be is pissing me the hell off. FYI, my boss is currently obese and very vocal about not liking it but oh the endless excuses she gives. OH SURE. I always structure huge life decisions like my health and overall happiness on other people's insecurities. OH WAIT. NO I FREAKING DON'T. GET OFF MY CASE OMG.
MAYBE. Just freaking MAYBE if you got off your lazy butt and actually do the things you keep saying then maybe you wouldn't be so hypercritical of my size. But sure, keep eating red velvet cupcakes for breakfast every morning. No, I really don't want any. WHY do you keep asking?! I know exactly where you can shove those cupcakes. I can be whatever size I freaking want because it's MY god damn body. This crap will only get worse because I'm only halfway there. I can just tell. Ugh. This is my parents backward comments all over again!
Some much needed positivity.... I cooked my spaghetti squash last night and it was amazing. I will puree the tomatoes next time to make a sauce. And that is quorn "chicken".
I have also signed up to take a wellness exam (blood tests, etc) tomorrow morning for my job's wellness program. They will keep track of me I guess and my journey to health for as long as I stay with the company. I'm sincerely hoping I don't have hypertension because I've been really stressed lately. I shouldn't keep letting petty things like this bother me but they do. Ugh.
92 days left.