Monday, September 23, 2013
I just wanted to say Thank you to all you guys out there who write blobs and share your story's with us. Many are inspiring and help everyone realize that we are not alone in this journey. Sometimes its good to know that someone else messed up this weekend along with you on those days when you feel like giving in its also nice to be able to share when something good happens a milestone or even just completing a healthy day. I am glad I found and came back to Spark....
With that said.. Yesterday was the first day of fall and the first day to get back on track for me and so far so good I must say. I look in the mirror and don't like the person I have become. I don't like the psyscial overweight me and I think this has begun to play a role in how I feel and act towards others as well. As I mentioned before I had tried taking prescription meds for mood swings and the other symptoms of this wonderful perimenopause but I think that they left me not feeling like me, being too laid back. Now without them I have noticed that I am a bit crazy over reactive. I need to find that balance and soon. I have an over reaction last night involving my step son what started out as him not doing something he was supposed to ended in a screaming match. YES a bunch of it was my fault I blew it up and I apologized. So I am in search of balance whatever that is.. I have a doctor appt on Thursday this week and I am hoping she can help me figure out some of this. and maybe with this balance I can loose some of this weight. I wish I would have taken seriously when older ladies said to loose the weight while you can (back in my mid thirty's) cause once you get about 40 its get a lot harder..
Any how enough blabbing I am doing well tracking and eating good today so far. Bought myself a new water bottle and I am hoping it will remind me to drink more water. Also loaded up at the grocery store with good for me stuff. I am going to do this I know I am getting to old to continue eating the way I was greasy fat sugar time for a change.