Sunday, September 22, 2013
It happened again - somebody who I hadn't seen for a while says to me, "You look great. What are you doing?" How do *you* deal with those kinds of questions?
Admittedly I find the question irksome, chiefly because I'm still embarrassed that I could lose 40 lbs and then gain it all back. Yeah, I'm nearly back to where I was, and I'm proud of that, but I can't quite shake the embarrassment.
Another reason to find it irksome: I'm not done with weight loss yet. I'm on the cusp of not being overweight anymore. My body seems to have gone through one of its transitions again and I'm better able to wear the smaller things in my closet, but they're not as comfortable as I'd like them to be. My head hasn't completely made the shift either. Weird thing is that when I was heavy, I had trouble looking at myself in the mirror because in my head I didn't look that heavy. Now that I'm thinner, I have trouble seeing myself in the mirror because I look trimmer than I think I am.
I know at some point all of this will be resolved. I watched a colleague at work who has lost about 110 lbs and has maintained it for about two years gracefully respond and smile to somebody who asked him about his weight loss and what he was doing.
Until it does get resolved in my head, I'll do my best to emulate him.