Why do I Sabotage myself?
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Why do I sabotage myself? Yesterday I weighted 155. I was thrilled even excited to weigh that morning.
Six pounds is a lot when you are 59. As the decades pass it takes more work to get weight off.
Our identical twin boys are leaving for college in 4 days. Last nite the boys stayed home a rarity for them. i made eggplant parm had a glass of wine, we played fun games. (on an ipod it is called Ellen Degenerous.) Then right before I went to bed I saw Stew eating tortilla chips....salty. ( Worst habit late night eating) They were the crumbs at the bottom of the bag, that no one eats I was doing a service to eat them. So I ate maybe a cup of crumbs. Now I am 156.5 so stupid.
But I am already back on the horse. I hope... I can only do this so many times before I stop? It is chilly today when it warms I will go biking. I can't decide why I sabotage 1) I did good I deserve a treat or 2) i don't deserve to reach my goal of 142? Who knows but I must stop.