Yesterday could have been a pretty bad day for me, it was the anniversary of the death my brother.
And it was the anniversary of another event in my life that really changed who I am and the way my lifes direction has gone in the last year.
But instead of sitting inside and feeling down and sorry, I went and hung out at the river with my dearest friend.
We walked along the water and looked for arrowheads, and stood by our cars talking for 2 hours.
I always come away from my time spent with him feeling better about life. I always am reminded to always live life to the fullest, cant change the past and have to move forward, he has a way of reminding me that life is short, and we cant always control what happens, but we can control how we react to it, and what we do to steer ourselves away from further pain. He never ceases to amaze me with the way he can make me go from down in the dumps to feeling pumped and ready to take on the world. He has been thru hell on this earth and at times he too can get very very depressed, but he goes off alone and sits and thinks and prays on it and he finds some meaning in whatever it is.
I can say with all honesty, he is the best friend I have ever had and I hope everyday to talk to him and I know when I do, I will see a little light at the end of the darkness.
This man was the friend who was convicted of 2nd degree manslaugher earlier this year.
I have blogged about him in the past, about the events that occurred in his life that caused this to be.
A stranger came to his home in the early morning hours and tried to come inside and he took the only action he felt he could at that time.
That was over a year ago and it was during that time these events happened when I really buckled down and got myself on the ball.
On July 3rd last year my friend was released on bond and I seen him struggling with the way people viewed him, I seen him dealing with the decision he had made.
And I knew I had to be there for him, so I changed my life as well, I gave up pop then, havent had one since, and I started walking daily, started losing weight and he was always there for me, coming to walk with me to encourage me to keep at it.
I sat in court with him every day of his trial.
I know thru my life that no matter how down I get, I can call on him anytime and he is a true friend, he is the real deal, he will stop whatever he is doing and talk to me.
and I know I have helped him as well.
We tell each other often how we both feel our lives might have gone differently had we not found each other when we did.
I guess its hard to explain how someone you have pretty much known from afar for so long can come closer into your life and change you for the better.
So overall yesterday turned out to be a really good day.
I will never stop fighting for positive change in my life, i will walk and I will eat healthy and I will read and find ways to stay positive, and spark daily.
And I will love my friend for what he has given me, happiness in my darkest hours. He is one friend I never ever doubt.
me and my very best bestie SM!!!
....looking for arrowheads on the riverbank. Ky/Va state line.