Hey guys. I have to say I have a bit of a grump going on today, although it's hard to maintain since it's so gorgeous outside
I had the sort of surprise job interview on Wednesday. I thought they said they would let us know Thursday. I really hope I misunderstood though, because I have heard nothing.
I really, really, really wanted that job, and not just to, you know, keep making money when I lose my current one at the end of the month. I REALLY loved that place, I had such a good feeling about it. Everything seemed perfect. It seemed like The Answer to why all these bad things happened to me this year (getting rejected from grad school, losing my job).
It was at the University of Maryland (ACADEMIA! NOT INDUSTRY!!!!!!!) That was my main reason for excitement, as many of you know I want to get out of industry science and into academia instead. It was just amazing, I was there for 3.5 hours. They didn't even ask me any questions. Oh, I'm sorry. They asked me one question. "Are you afraid of rats?" LOL. I met another research assistant, Lily, who I fell in love with the second I met her. People, that is monumental for me. I NEVER like people when I first meet them, EVER. It has happened to me twice in my life- my boyfriend, in 2006, and my best friend in 2005. Other than that, I'm always suspicious when I meet a new person. I sort of look you up and down and think to myself, "Well, we'll see." People have to grow on me. For a long time. So liking Lily right away sort of floored me and made it seem even more perfect and like The Answer that I talked about earlier.
I don't know, I can't shake that good gut feeling that it was just so RIGHT. I really hope I'm just being negative and pessimistic and maybe they will still call or email or whatever, but I'm losing hope. They're in a hurry to get these new research assistants because the project starts October 1 and I really did think they said they were letting us know Thursday... *sigh* I'm just so sad about it. It would be an amazing opportunity for me especially in the long run. They were all excited to hear I wanted to go to grad school too, and talked about how this position would help me so much with that. ARGH! I WANT THAT JOB!
Anyway, I've been so stressed out this week that I've been avoiding CrossFit when I need it the most. I went yesterday morning, and it was so fun. The owner's dog Finnigan was there again. He is the cutest thing ever. He came and sat on me on the rower before the WOD. The clock started counting down and I couldn't get him to leave! He is so precious.
I did hurt my back again though, but not as bad at usual. I would give it a 5 on a scale of 1 (not injured) to 10 (normal slipped disc, can't walk) I can still function as long as I am careful. Another reason I would have loved that job- I would have had good insurance and I could go see the physical therapist whenever I wanted. I need to do the exercises he prescribed for me. He says my problem is my core is not strong enough to support my spine during heavy lifts and that makes sense to me. I had a bad habit of neglecting my core when I worked out on my own and now everything is unbalanced because of it.
However, if I build up my core, then I can build up my back muscles, which should protect my discs. Hooray! Now I just need to DO IT. And lose these extra 13-15 fat pounds I have acquired lately. They're not helping anything at all.
Thanks for reading guys. And let's hope I misunderstood about Thursday and that job is still a possibility