Friday, September 20, 2013
Thank you so much for all of the kind words and encouragement. I have committed myself to getting back to the basics. As I mentioned in my previous blog, I'm a great one for epic efforts of one kind or another and then do nothing because I need to recover, or goof off, or see what is new on You Tube or....
As simple as it sounds, I am actually working on something that makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something huge.... It's called showing up. Showing up at the gym everyday and doing something. In this instance, it is simply walking.
Why walking you ask??
First, please allow me to define stupid for you ...
I did a half marathon last weekend, really struggled, and pretty much took a beating physically. Then to top it all off with the icing of stupid, I failed to follow my established recovery protocols because it was "only" a half marathon.
Pain cake is served.... I'll pass on seconds but thank you anyway....I'm trying to watch my girlish figure...
Note to self: Even if it Is your tenth half, do not use only and half marathon in the same breath.
I did finish. I even got a survivors medal to prove that even if only by sheer force of will, fools can and do succeed. Respect the distance.
Anyway enough of that.
So far I have maintained a steady consistency in my efforts to get back to basics. I have also taken an inventory of where I am at and after all of the smoke has settled and fluctuations due to water weight have been accounted for and mitigated, I gained 5 lbs in legitimate weight. Not catastrophic but disappointing nonetheless. I'm actually not phased by this, I could see it coming and I also know that it will also go back to where it was by simply doing what I was doing when I weighed 5 lbs less.
It was a drag at first but now my momentum has really gained a head of steam and I am doing really good.....and proud of myself too. This is the first time in a long time I have actually been consistent going to the gym and watching my intake. Just simply going back to square one and doing those simple things that I have already proven by experience works, I have already reversed the slide and am really cooking along. Mentally I am totally on board and somehow got a second wind. We're good now. I have the mental energy to seriously focus on losing weight and faith is building.
One thing that seems to be something I've really gotten ahold of is how to snap back quick. When you are training for something big, you don't have the luxury of spending too much time attending your own pity party, you go in spite of how you feel. I think that the same mentality and learned behavior has carried over to this as well. That's a good thing because in the past I have been given to being moody, getting down and staying there but I've managed to gain something over the last few years.
The power of doing.
Simply making the commitment to just do it has time and time again brought fresh momentum when I needed it most.
I am just going to put one foot in front of the other. I need to lose 40 pounds to make it to my goal and you lose it not by losing 40 pounds but by losing 1 pound 40 times. It's easy to get freaked out by the enormity of the task but, heck, anybody can lose a pound right?
Rinse, lather, repeat.
1 pound, that is all I am shooting for. Once that one is behind me... Then it's on to the next pound and that is all I think about.
One would think that after as much as I have lost, 40 should be cake walk.... How about its more like the last 6 miles of a marathon. I described a marathon after I did it as a 20 mile jog to the start of the toughest 10k of your life. if you have ever done one, you know exactly what I'm talking about. That "hit the wall" feeling is how this feels. I finished 26.2 miles by doing 1 mile 26.2 times because sometimes you can't think that far ahead, just concentrate on the mile that is in front of you, then the next.
So it is with this.... I'm deep in the weight loss marathon and I will finish.