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Staying Motivated, mumbling to myself, and appearing collected.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

I will never say that I have it all together but I will say that owning and running a business from home is exhausting. I have a 'to-do' list that seems to never end along with piles of work with deadlines that I can't seem to keep up with. Since I work from home I feel like I am always working. So, when do step aside from my work life and focus on taking care of myself and my family? I've put so many supportive loved ones on the back burner for well over a year and when does it stop?
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I have been avoiding mirrors, working in my comfy sweats, and basically just doing what I had to do to just get through the day...to survive. I let myself go and it all started almost two years ago. I can't say that my new career is to blame for my lack of physical motivation and very poor food choices. Almost two years ago my husband and I made the decision to start a family. We were excited to take this step and I immediately stopped taking the birth control pill. After 30 days of stopping the pill I gained 10lbs. I chalked it up to not eating as healthy as I should and sitting in front of a computer for hours on end. I swore I would start working out and watching my diet but as always that lasted for min. I was dealing with demanding clients, working two jobs, and had zero time for myself. Who had time to cook healthy, let alone work out? Not this girl...or so I thought.

1.5-years later I had gained over 20lbs and was diagnosed with PCOS. How did I go from 135lbs to 155+ in only a year? I was also dealing with painful cystic acne all over my face and body. I had no clue what was happening but I was embarrassed to be seen in public and be around friends and family. I was sure no one would understand what I was going through and would just label me a closet Twinkie eater. PCOS is not something that is easy to explain and most people are not familiar with it. Most women with PCOS have a hard time conceiving, deal with insulin resistance (causing rapid weight gain), cystic acne, and hair growth. Whooa...how did I get so lucky?! Anyway, I am not going to use my PCOS as a crutch. It is something I have to learn to live with but how?

So, this is where my journey starts. I am restarting my lifestyle and I welcome you to tag along with me. I recently found my inner fight and I know this is not going to be easy but one day I would like to be able to conceive a child on my own and I know in order to do so I need to get it together, stay motivated, and appear collected...to my clients anyway :)

I used to enjoy cooking healthy and being active. Now, I am forcing myself to implement office hours so that I can take some much needed 'me' time. I am learning in order to be the best you can be, you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of others. So, again, I welcome you to follow along to help me stay motivated and I look forward to hearing about your journey.

Until next time-
xoxo
SC

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  • v PGHP31CK
    You CAN do it! I'm cheering for you!! emoticon

    Just remember, there's no such thing as a balanced life. And you're right -- the only way we can take care of others is to take care of ourselves. Good for you for recognizing that!!

    Stick to your plan and hang in there!!
    1011 days ago
  • v KLDJSURVEY
    I agreed
    1014 days ago
  • v SPIDER095
    You can do it!!!!
    1014 days ago
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