Thursday, September 19, 2013
I am in a funk. Full funk. Feeling Funky.
Back in May I went to a "Chi Running" workshop, which is supposed to teach you how to run to reduce the risk of injury.. and in true irony - I injured myself during the workshop. Yeah, you read that right.. we had warmed up and then the instructor ""instructed us for about an hour while we stood around.. and got cold... then we were to use the technique to run 30 yards or so.. I had run about 10 yards when I knew something had happened to my achilles.. OUCH
I went to my doctor and she felt like it was achilles tendonitis and I went to 8 weeks of physical therapy.. it didn't really get better.. and I decided I'd go to an Orthopod when I returned from Africa.. which I did but Ii'd been limping around for almost 3 months.. got an MRI and found out I have a small tear in my achilles and achilles tendonOSIS (not itis).. and yesterday I got THE BOOT.. I have to wear it for six weeks.. and I have to do PT (physical therapy) again.. and if at the end of six weeks it's not better?? then surgery.. ugh
On top of that, about two months ago I "found" a tennis ball size lump in my left quad.. how? you ask? I was doing "wall sits" trying desperately to get to 3 minutes and at about 2 minutes and 20 seconds my legs started shaking and I reached down to rub them and felt "it".. the tennis ball.. it's weird.. it disappears if I relax my leg and reappears when I contract my quad. It has never hurt.. and still doesn't.. it's just there. So, while at the orthopod I had him look at it.
The orthopod thinks at sometime I've "ruptured" a portion of my quad EXCEPT that I should remember it because it should have hurt like the dickens, so much so that I would have high tailed it to the emergency department, he'd have been called and I would have had surgery to fix it... sigh, really???. The problem is I cannot think of a time when I have hurt my leg - ever - and most especially in the last six months.. He suggested that it might have happened a long long time ago and because of my weight loss and weight lifting it's made itself evident. hmmmmmm.. okay..
I say "well, I'm just glad it's not a tumor"...
"OH" he says "it could be a tumor especially since you can't remember ever hurting it"
Really?? SERIOUSLY?? UGH
He suggested either 1) monitoring for another 3 months for changes in size, etc. or 2) having an MRI... I've already met my deductible this year so I went for the MRI option so I can know for sure.. with my family's history of cancer, I just can't be too careful.. right?
So.. that is why I'm in a funk... the tests.. the boot.. the tennis ball.. ugh.. it happens.. Life can't be all puppies and rainbows.. but here's the deal.. I have not deviated from my eating plan during this funk.. I have continued my CrossFit workouts (even with the dern boot).. and I'm continuing to lose weight (albeit slowly).. however, I am NOT sleeping well at all which I know impacts my weight loss.
The silver lining is that I am not turning to food to deal with my funk... and that is HUGE.. it's also one of the fabulous side effects of the Paleo way of eating.. if I was eating like I used to, the cravings would be crazy and I would be diving headfirst into a jar of nutella, a bag of oreos and 3 pringle tubes!
One more thing... when I walked in CrossFit with my new fancy boot, my coach didn't miss a beat.. he asked about my limitations.. and then we "adapted" and kicked some serious po-po... I love that man.. so I can keep up my CrossFit workouts cuz where there is a will there is a way.. and I am ecstatic about that..
So, I'm here.. not at my best.. not a lot of energy to spare for others right now... so I will admit to "retreating" for a bit.. thank you for understanding..
104 days and 36lbs til ONEderland,