Thursday, September 19, 2013
I've never been a really confident person. I've always felt self conscious beside anyone who weighted less than I did. I've always felt ugly and worthless because I weighed more than I feel I should. As a child I was as skinny as could be but once I hit my teen years, I slowly began to gain weight. At 19 I was okay with my weight, not completely confident but comfortable enough. Then I got pregnant and gained weight like crazy. Once I had my daughter, I figured the weight I gained would be lost once I had her. Wow was I ever wrong. Since she was born, I think I gained even more weight. I'm to the point where I hate mirrors, scales and clothes shopping. I'm afraid to see what I truly weigh. Now I feel like I've come to a place that I'm ready to face this. I'm ready and motivated to do the work necessary to bring me to my goal. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin, confident when summer time comes around next year. For once I want to feel beautiful. I'm ready to begin my journey to the body I want. And it all starts today.
Let the "fun" begin.