There's something that has been weighing on me for the last couple of days. I just can't seem to shake it.
The other day, I didn't hit my 10,000. I got to a little over 8000. I was beat and did lots of running around (so I thought) and when I mentioned it to my husband he said, "Go for a walk, or you're gonna fail."
I was kinda just thrown for a loop! I couldn't believe he said that. Gee, thanks for the support dear...
Ugh... All evening and since then, I kept telling myself, 'gotta get that 10.' 'Can't mess up tomorrow.' 'How did I not hit 10,000 today?'
This is not the mentality I should be having. This is
. This is what will throw me off... and guess what?
I CAUGHT THAT NEGATIVE SELF-TALK!!!
That I feel pretty good about.
Still, I couldn't believe that my husband said that and now all I've been thinking is that it doesn't matter what he said. *I'm* the one busting my butt EVERY DAY. I'm the one who plans the more healthy meals and cooks them. I'm the one who usually suggests a walk or a bike ride. What does HE do???
I now think that it really doesn't matter that I didn't make that 'goal' that ONE day. Every other day I EXCEED it! That doesn't make me a failure. If I quit, if I give up and stop pushing and trying, THAT makes me a failure. But every day is a new day, a new opportunity to move on and shake off what I didn't quite make. Thing is, I ate good. I did walk. I got fresh air. I got my 10 waters that day and I FELT good.
Now, why can't I shake what he said right off? Maybe I need to just tell him that it really bothered me and what *I* think a failure is, because it is NOT ME!!!