Wednesday, September 18, 2013
So I don't know...I have had ups and downs but I usually have had a positive outlook when all is said and done but the past few days have been tough. I think it is just a combination of things. Baby boy had a wonderful birthday and I had a great day. We had his birthday party the next day on Saturday and all was good. Then Sunday, I just don't know what happened. It hasn't been big things, just all the little things that go wrong or make things difficult.
For example, I went for my run yesterday and forgot my ear buds at home. Fine ok. I then realized that I had no sunglasses and the sun was super bright. Then as I was running I got a severe headache on one side of my head, right behind my eye. I noticed that the sun was shining right into that eye which was probably causing the pain. I tried pushing through, then I got a pain in my gut, not like a muscle pain but under that, inside. So after only running about 1.5 miles, I had to stop to a walk and run in intervals for the next 2 miles letting the pain subside then come again after I started running again. (Never did find out what the pain was, but it went away by the time I got home and has yet to come back) This made any sort of exercise induced "good feelings" nonexistent. The rest of the day was the same way...Little things that just kept getting me down until I felt like eating a huge slice of my son's left over birthday cake.
Today hasn't been much better. After a night of broken sleep, I just can't get into the mood of anything today. Maybe because it is laundry day (I hate laundry day with a passion) maybe it is because I am tied to the house all day. I don't know. All I know is that I just feel down and I want to curl up in bed and do nothing and have everything else around me do nothing.
Hubby took care of the kids this evening and fixed dinner for us, which made me very grateful, but I will admit that I had really hoped that he would have just picked something up or taken us out to eat...even if it had just been Subway. I'm tired of being stuck at home, I'm tired of being cooped up with very little interaction with other adults. I suppose that is part of the deal with being the "stay-at-home mom" who lives on a tight budget so that I can be there for the kids and last week it didn't bother me so much.
So why am I in a funk now?