Wednesday, September 18, 2013
I realized recently that my stress level is what's really destroying, like, half my life...that has to be fixed ASAP. Heck, it's more important than my weight if you think about it: stress is supposed to help you hold onto fat, wear out your body, can make ya stress-eat, obviously ruins your mood and energy levels, and when you start to add all of that up...that's a lot of pounds my body is holding onto simply because it's too petrified with fear and worry to let go!
I have a ton of stress going on in my life right now, almost all of it centered around money. I have a Master's degree, but without 3-5 years of experience on top of it, even a lot of entry-level jobs don't want me! Heck, I've been making near-minimum wage (when I AM employed) because even retail jobs won't let me be more than the bottom of the ladder without heaps of retail-oriented experience...you'd think nearly a decade of school would prove that I can learn and adapt and work hard, but apparently not.
On top of that, I have some legal issues going on due to things that happened while I tried to move from Texas to live with my Mom in Jersey (that I really don't want to go into) because I couldn't pay my current expenses. It really feels like I've had nothing but bad luck for the past 2 months.....
.....but I'm hoping that's slowly going to turn around now! It may only be on-call at $7.40/hour, but at least I got hired somewhere today! A tiny bit of money is better than no money at all while I try to find full-time work. And at least my expenses here are lower than before (no $300 worth of rent, for one), so *maybe* I can squeak by for a little bit.
The main thing with my stress challenge is that I REALLY need to learn is that, even if bad things happen, it will NOT be the end of me--I CAN RECOVER FROM ANYTHING THAT HAPPENS. Stop worrying about things that are completely or almost entirely out of your hands, because what the heck are you going to accomplish that way? Just let life happen and adapt where you can!
I'm only on day 1 of my journey, but dangit I'm going to make it. I just need to not rush things and not become upset if I don't reach my goals fast (or without hitting some road bumps). I need to meet more folks on SparkPeople...it's easier if you have a network around you to help out, because Lord knows I can't do this all alone.