Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Still in that weird workout place right now. Just don't feel motivated. For a while I had goals and things that I was shooting for, and ever since I ran that half marathon a few weeks ago I just don't feel energized to get out there (gym or run.) I mean it's good from the standpoint of healing and "rebooting" the muscle memory within the body, but I just don't feel the crazy wild hairs like I did. I finally made it to the gym, and I think it was the first time in like 2 weeks. Sure once I walked in it clicked (atmosphere, people, the process, etc.) I just don't feel CRAZY! I thought back yesterday to the times where I couldn't sleep and would go to the gym at like 3 in the morning, and I can't find THAT level of focus. Don't get me wrong, I am feeling REALLY torn to pieces (sore) already from what I did last night, but even the thought process to getting back in there the next time is different. I'm lucky because I gained maybe a few pounds if that, still look pretty solid, and still get the changing appearance comments. So I haven't been knocked off far from where I was. I just don't have my mind wrapped around the being active thing. And the runs, I'm just trying to play it safe. Trying to mend all the training stress on the body from the past year, and am just lost in whether I want to do this November run in the city or not. The more I think about how I felt on that run on Saturday the more I question doing the Hot Chocolate run. I don't think I'll be able to run it with a decent time (in my eyes.) I might be able to pace it slow all the way through, but the cold air is going to prevent me from stepping on the gas (AND THAT SUCKS!) I mean during that last event I felt competitive when it started with looking for the holes in the running packs to run through just to find a more suitable pace of runners to be around. If I'm not going to have that feeling, then what's the point? Then it goes back to the things that draw me in when it comes to doing things that I want to do. HOW OFF THE WALL IS IT FOR ME. 40,000 runners, running downtown, and now add the the running in the cold (yeah I know I just decribed it as a concern and now this.) Really though, it's a challenge to run that distance in lower temps that makes me want to do it too. But it's dangerous if I'm not careful. If I push it, I could be in a lot of trouble. We had a couple of days this week were the times got into the 40's and 50's and I am starting to go through the seasonal struggle with it. I don't know if I'm going to have enough time to adjust to it, or if this run will be too much for it. So I'll figure all that out with doing more runs of course. The good thing is that we are talking about a 15K instead of a half marathon. I'm just all over the place on this run right now. And then I'm kind of thinking of doing a run when I'm in North Carolina too because of the scenery too. I'm definately going to have to let making this decision ride right up until just before the race.