LIfe goes on.
No matter what we face each day life around us just continues. Sometimes we have to make choices that are unpleasant, and sometimes we have to make them on behalf of others. That's what I faced today. On Monday we had a meeting with experts about my mother's care. Today I had to meet with her GP. At the Monday meeting it was suggested altering her medication. This sounded plausible, and it would have been so easy to say 'Yes, OK, just do it', but I'm so glad I didn't.
My mother is unable to make decisions on her own behalf. In fact, she is unable to do anything for herself. She is totally dependent for every single part of her life - she can't even turn herself. She receives total nursing care, and I have to qualify that with EXCELLENT total nursing care. She is turned every two hours by night and day and the quality of her skin shows that this really happens. Anyway, that wasn't the subject of today's visit, as I said, it was medication.
Her GP was a little concerned at the suggestion of changing the meds. Thankfully he was even more concerned when meds based on morphine were suggested. I was horrified. I had no idea that this was the situation, and so thankful that she has a caring doctor who has her best interests at heart, even though it could be said that she has no real quality of life. I spent over an hour with her this morning. She may be lying, immobile, in a bed, she may have to be fed pureed food, she has other problems too, but today her mental state was as clear as anything and when I became upset as something happened she said, as clearly as anything, 'Don't worry, I'm happy'
She has a small private room. Staff visit her on a regular basis, checking on her comfort etc, they always have a friendly word with her and although she may not recognise them all she always gives them a smile and responds. I learnt today that staff visit her more than any other resident, because her room is so peaceful. When they are stressed by other residents actions they go and talk to my mother, and that gives them the strength to carry on with their day. This is such a lovely testimony.
I'm only mentioning this because it is such a contrast to the excitement and wonder of yesterday. From the heights of Mount Everest to the stark depths of reality. Life goes on, and it's all a question of balance.
I blew away the cobwebs again today - by walking to the rail station. My DH had gone to London, and the walk there was perfect to bring back a sensible perspective
Sometimes life is a bit of a blur - like the above picture that was shot 'from the hip' today. Familiar things blur and are almost of no consequence. Then suddenly, life is full of clarity and we can see the way ahead.
Changing our lifestyle is the turning point in our walk with healthy eating. When life is a blur we don't really think what we are putting into our mouths. As we carry on with Spark our needs for nutrition alter and everything becomes more clear.
Old or young, we must decide what is best for our bodies and our lives. And if we can find peace at the same time, life is perfect.
Onwards and Upwards.