Wednesday, September 18, 2013
I haven't blogged in months, mostly because I've had a guilty conscience. As much as I want to lose weight and be healthy, the last couple months I've been in a slump.
I stopped working out because of my gall bladder surgery and then I just have had one excuse after another. I'm frustrated because I worked out for a year and quite frankly I haven't seen the results because I continued to eat crap.
This week my son started school which is freeing me up for a couple hours twice a week. This is allowing me to go to Weight Watchers meetings. This morning I sat down with my WW materials and planned out dinners for the week, calculated the points for my go to breakfast foods and I ate a healthy salad for lunch. Today is the first day of a fresh start.
I know I'm big. I know I shouldn't eat certain foods. I know how to eat healthy, exercise and do all the things that well meaning friends tell me to do. I don't know why it is so difficult to do the right things all the time.
I'm not optimistic right now. I'm frustrated and I'm disappointed in myself that I let myself grow to be the heaviest I have ever been. I'm embarrassed. But I started this blog months ago to hold myself accountable and I'll continue to post it publicly to keep myself honest. I have received several beautiful comments from friends and family who tell me that they appreciate my story and they also shared their own struggles with their weight. Your love and support means more than you know. You will keep me motivated, even when I doubt myself.